be comfortable around people

with doing things for yourself, comes the comfort. and i don’t have stagefrieght anymore.

la la la la.

it’s scary to be around a big group of people-wher everyone knows everyone and everyone is talking about something that you know nothing about. I’m tired of being scared of talking and thinking that i may say something stupid. i’m not going to do that anymore. I’m not going to be scared of them anymore.

i may have something brilliant to say one day.

it wasnt easy, i’m still working on it. but with the help of therapist, self-help books and programs, my anxiety around people has decreased enormously.

I guess i always had it in me. For so long i was shy and then slowly i started to come out of my shell, but the discomfort was definitely still there. But after getting a job in retail and constantly having to talk to complete strangers i know longer find being with people i don’t know difficult. I feel that i could walk up to anyone and have no trouble starting a conversation…it’s kind of wonderfully amazing.

wow, meds really do work, or im just putting my mind to something. anyhow, my comfort level has gotten way up, im no longer thinking people are conspiring to ridicule me. but now that the voices and my anxiety has decreased, im finding that theres less to say.. or i dont have tthe motivation to talk. Arre my meds turning me into a zombie? Have i been an introvert all along? Do i need to find new friends? Am i empty-headed?

well ive gotten way better at this since a couple of months ago, with the help of my meds, especially in groups. now all i have to do is learn the art of talking.