feel beautiful in my own skin

no really it is..i use to be BIG….215 WAS MY WEIGHT BUT THEN I GOTTEN BIGGER AND my wrestling couch had all the guys make sure i didnt eat more faaty foods cuz i was pushing 275 so ehh ya after awhile i lost my weight now im back at 220 hopefully i can keep it….but keep your mind at ease and you will love your self no matter what

i walk around naked sometimes and pretend i am confident about it. i’m not.
gave up eating for a couple of days. actually felt good minus the severe sleepiness. this isn’t what this goal is about. but like i said i’d feel better about the skin i’m in if there wasn’t so much fat under it.

To feel beautiful being me

i was looking at old pictures… of when i was thin… of when i never ate and ran like crazy… i think i may return.

I’ve been feeling less and less… but more so unhappy with what’s under my skin… like the fatness is making the skin stretch to the point of making me want to vomit by the sight of it… i’m gross.

i do.

it’s amazing how my own grandmother can make me feel so horrible.
you should stop eating fats totally… if you keep eating fats the way that you do you’re just going to keep getting fatter…

this is my christmas with my grandparents… followed by three days of my finger down my throat.

is becoming harder and harder as the skin i’m in expands to hold the fat behind it.

i think in needs to be more… feel beautiful in my own skin without the attention/attraction of a male to assist

i need to stop depending upon the attention of others to make me feel wonderful. right now my skin feels tight from all the fat bludging out underneath it. self esteem is so hard to control. mirrors have been turned around for the time being… maybe once i begin running a lot more then i’ll be confident enough to turn them around.