consciously create my day

im happy when i plan my days out one at a time and set goals, its amazing

My best days are when I can manage to achieve this goal, so sitting at the #2 spot on my list is a good place for it.

I feel very productive and happy when I do this.

The lazy part of my brain has a delusion that doing productive things is icky and tedious, but no, no, no! It is satisfying to get things done.

Nice to see you all, I’m off now, going back to continue on my consciously created day. :)

for me to use to keep focused and accomplish what I want to do each day. It’s amazing how much I can cross off in a day. :)

in a few months stopped by unexpectedly Sunday evening. He was surprised to see how messy my home was because I have always kept it very nice.

It was cluttered and dishes were in the sink…my reply was I haven’t been feeling well and was depressed. He just laughed and said no wonder I was depressed… the only way I’d feel better was to straighten up the place to the way I like it, put on some music and quit thinking about being depressed. He also suggested I get busy and quit being alone at home so much.

Yesterday he called to see if I had taken his advice…you know I had and was feeling much better. Sometimes others can see things we can’t and have very easy solutions to our problems that seem so overwhelming to us.

to make it whatever we want. Of course there are outside circumstances beyond our control…those we have to accept (preferably with a good attitude) but we have an option to make many decisions each day that affect our individual lives.

Today I am making a pledge to live with a grateful glad heart and a bright smile. I have to remember there are always others who have things worse than I do.

January 1st just seems like a great clean-up day . . .

So that’s what this day is all about.

My husband left for Afghanistan early this morning, and there’s some post-Christmas putting-away-of-stuff left to do, mostly stuff he’d put away if he wasn’t busy this year getting ready to leave.

So, first: Away with all things Christmas.

Second: Clean up the things I usually would have cleaned another time over the last week but didn’t because I didn’t want to waste the week before he left cleaning house.

Third: Catch up on the newspapers I didn’t read for the same reason as listed under “second” except replace “cleaning house” with “reading newspapers”

Fourth: Straighten up my office/work space. I’ll be using it a lot more over the next few months; it’s a bit cluttery in its current state.

Let’s start with that.

I think I am having a sort of midlife crisis. Goals that were important a few years ago are no longer so important. I think perhaps that I have become cynical and jaded, particularly in watching so many people (undeserving) get ahead and then seeing how it never really makes them happy anyway.

I have too much energy for my current state of affairs, however, and I would like to use it and my talents for a cause that I can believe in. I’ve given myself until the end of this year (not long now) to answer two very important questions.

1. What will add to my security?

2. What will add to the quality of my life?

For me, those two questions are what it is all about. The drive for security has driven a lot of my actions, although I cannot seem to stop taking risks either, however, the process tortures me.

The quality of life is important. I have seen firsthand that money doesn’t make one happy at all….nor does it add to the quality of your life unless you think very carefully about the choices made.

As i sit here today i’m feeling abit at sea about my direction in life. I know where i want to go but i’m not taking the concious regular actions and decisions which will lead to my goals. The reasons for this is due to the extreme pressure i have of running a house at great expense. The cost of living here is £2200 per month, which is must above what my current earnings are. However with a plan and some direct action i’m sure i’ll be able to turn things around from struggling to prospering. This though requires a plan.

So Today being saturday, my mum’s birthday i’m making sure that i call my mum today to say happy birthday. She brought me into this world and i’m grateful for that and that she has been there for me when i ask her to be. I’m also going to sort out the rabbits so that i relocate the male bunnies outdoors as they are starting to get territorial and smelly and i don’t want them in the house.

The aim today is also to get the cats sorted out, trays cleaned out and refreshed and clean the kitchen so that it’s sparkling. I also want to get the bathroom and my indoor rabbit cleaned out. Finally i’d like to enjoy some relaxation time playing online games and watching eastenders. If i get chance i’d like to look at my corporation tax returns and see if i can get any filed. I’d also like to come up with a cashflow plan and review the next steps on the business. Each day i’d like to keep a note of if i’ve achived my desires for the previous day so that i can see the steps i’m taking completed and that i’m moving in the right direction towards my destiny.

I don’t have bad days—I have bad moments. On any given day, at any given moment, I can start thinking and mourning the loss of Rocky. It’s not one day at a time; it’s one moment.

I tried this today; however, think I am in the anger stages of grief so it was a sort of angry day. I was so angry today, not just about losing Rocky but just about everything. I was in no mood to take any crap from anyone. Trust me, this can be a good thing in some of my present environments.

In an earlier msg, I wrote about the lesson and gift of Rocky, part of that gift was love. Love is love whether it comes from a human or an animal. But few humans can love so completely as an animal, particularly a dog—this dog, in particular. I’ll not accept anything less in the future.