I think i’m addicted to falling in love. I like listening to a love song and thinking about someone special. I enjoy buying that person a gift to see her give me that smile as in “you shouldn’t have but thank you”.

What I don’t miss is the rejection and dejection from a failed romance. I can never jump into full romantice relationship. I’m scared of failure 2 years ago

Last week I got rejected by a beautiful girl attempting this aim. i guess this is my fault from not showing enough dedication in my persuit of happiness and now someone else has swooped in and won her over.

She’s a school maths teacher.So in Christmas i bought her a simple apple to show her my appreciation. This is what i do and that is why I am useless failure.

Their are other bit and pieces to this story but i save that for another time when i feel better 2 years ago