discover something

Trip-hop and french music.. im in love now.. hehe. trip hop is like the slow music u hear in coffee shops n lounges like portishead and plumb.. and others. its soothing n thoughtful. french music is harder to find, but its good. its the obvious: music in french. haha

Sitting in a mall in front of a row of dressing rooms, I clutch a blue tank top in my hands, the only article of clothing I could actually see myself wearing and didn’t kill me with sticker shock. To my left, a young man, obviously very uneasy, waiting as his girlfriend tries on a number of clothing items. The background music blares a super-upbeat pop-rock song, that compliments the trandy, glittery pieces hanging from the displays and shelves within the store.

I’m wearing a black shirt I’ve had since 8th grade and a mens ring I found in a parking lot.

At one time, this shopping excursion would have lit me up and had me making music videos in my head.

Now, I can’t stand it. Even in a modest midwestern mall, the walls scream “Welcome to Mainstream America” and I just want to hide.

Looking around my room, I see mismatched…well…everything. My desk is littered with pens, papers, folders, antique store jewlry, photo albums and Alaska postcards.

I want to write novels. I want to work for PBS.

I mean, really. I wear shirts made of that waffle material stuff.

My name is AJ. And I’m happy.

Thankyou.

1:33 AM August 7th, 2006

I wana finish my degree and go to study something awesome in a god forskaen pit and redefine the way people think about something.

Something amazing!

buried treasure, myself, a secret, a mystery, love, something of significance, somethign with historical value, anything!