explore my creativity

art/creation/exploration/mystics/beauty/taboo
i’m inspired when i am inspiring. i love the rush of creating something i visualize and form into whatever that pushes some limits. any limits. awakens something, anything. etc, etc.

there’s all these ideas crawling around my head and very little time and energy after my 9 to 5. 2009 is the year i’m hoping to work something out. shift priorities, explore on, and so on.

I decided today that I want to get some paints…I might start with watercolors…and just see what I come up with. There is an art store on my street that I’ve only visited once. But, that one time I was so inspired. All of the paints and brushes and papers and clays and pastels made me feel like I used to feel in the toy store as a kid. I’m going to visit there and start making some purchases!

I’m going to start my seashell collage now. I think the real challenge is going to be making it beautiful and not cheesy (as shell art can definitely be). I’m also planning to make my nephew’s birthday present this year. I have a little wooden stepping stool that my sister, brother and I used to reach the sink, etc. when we were little. I’m going to cover it with a collage of things he loves and give it to him for his second b’day.

I’m starting to really get into the idea of making collages. I’m collecting some things while on vacation (including broken bits of seashells) and think I’m going to start putting them together when I get home.

I think I need to find some more active hobbies. Right now, I read and I watch TV and I hang out with friends. I’m starting to cook which is creative. I’d like to try my hand at other things too like knitting maybe, photography, drawing, and getting back to my writing, too. Although, that’s a whole goal on its own.

i startted writing again!!! not a lot but i started
and i got an idea for a movie and a filmmaker is interested in doing it. id say thats pretty creative, no?

i feel like i have all this creativity sitting inside me but i cannot seem to find an outlet that i enjoy to bring it out.

Everyone tells me I’m creative, but I just don’t see it. I’d like to be able to paint & not feel like I’m faking it.