Quitting videogames is quite difficult for me. I mean, I’ve been playing videogames ever since my cousin got an Atari. I’ve played everything from Atari,NES,SNES,Playstation,Nintendo 64,Sega,Sega Saturn,Sega Dreamcast,Playstation 2,XBOX,Game Cube,XBOX360,Playstation 3,Wii,PSP,GBA,GBC,DS, and probably more. But really, how long will I keep playing? I really love the entertainment videogames bring me but I also hate the fact that I waste so much time too. So far I have managed to quit console gaming because I don’t own any of the newest consoles. My last generation consoles were PS2, XBOX, and Game Cube. I don’t own an XBOX360, or a Wii, or a PS3. But I do own a powerful computer and play games on it. As much as I want to quit playing games I just can’t. It’s like a smoker’s urge to jump in and smoke a cigarette because someone else is smoking one. When I see my other roommates and friends here at my college play their XBOX360’s,PS2,PS3, and Wii, I just want to jump right in and play. Thank goodness I don’t own any of these systems. I think I would be stuck playing it all the time. On PC I played MMORPG’s a lot but I recently got over it and quit for good. Now I’m stuck playing FPS games because it’s fast paced and I have nothing to maintain. FPS games are the only games I play now because I don’t want to waste 7 hours playing an MMORPG. But how do I quit playing it too? I mean I have a steam account, I can’t just sell it and I can’t delete it. DirectX10 games are coming out soon and I really want to see what the FPS games in DX10 really offer. I don’t own an DX10 videocard yet but I have a real urge to jump right in and buy one. The only thing that is stopping me is money issues. I would really like one but I would put a huge dent into my wallet if I chose to buy one. Which would really put me in a bad position for college.
Even quitting MMO games I have an urge to jump back in and play City of Heroes again. I always wanted to be a hero or a villain and that’s the only chance I will ever get. I feel like I might relapse and jump right in to play COH again but at the same time it will make a dent in my wallet which stops me from playing. I have a huge dent in my wallet that I have to repair. But it’s hard to quit playing when everyone around me at college owns an XBOX360 or play some kind of videogame. But right now I have an urge to play an FPS…Day of Defeat: Source and Counterstrike: Source….
The urge and satisfaction of just getting “BOOM HEAD SHOTS” or “I PWN” just satisfies my boredness for some reason. It’s just that nothing else other than music really satisfies a bad day I had or fix the boredness in my life. I don’t know how to replace that urge for playing videogames. Until I can figure out what the replacement is I can’t really ever quit. I feel like such a loser wasting my time away playing videogames. I MUST & HAVE to quit FOREVER! It’s just so difficult…I’m going to end up stopping to type and jump in to start STEAM and play a few rounds of DODS or CSS…the other thing that ticks me off is that so many people download illegal stuff through bittorrent here that it makes me lag so bad playing FPS games here that make me want to quit. I guess that is helping me quit videogaming, otherwise it’s just aggravating me to get a better connection to play.
But I can tell you though…quitting….....is VERY HARD. Telling me to quit videogames is like telling a smoker to quit smoking. Videogames is my nicotine as cigarettes are a smoker’s nicotine. So…the quest for quitting has started…at least I hope.