not let people have such an effect on me

Lately I’ve just been getting fed up with people. One of my friends has been crushing on this other girl for MONTHS and keeps saying she’s not going to jump every time for this girl. Well she told me last night she was lending this chick money to get a ring for her new gf, and it’s breaking her heart. I told her she was an idiot for it and I reamed her out. I feel bad for it, but I hate watching people allow themselves to get fucked over so much and then wonder why they hurt. Pardon my language, it just really irks me.

Anyhow, the negative things being said to me lately have been rolling off, even if I stew over it for a little while (like a fight with the bf and something he says) but I also have been having more positive things said to me than negative lately, so it’s hard to judge.

Since I was four years old, I have allowed people to shape my thoughts, and allowed them to hurt me. I’ve been picked on for everything I can think of growing up, my size especially. Unfortunately, when I get depressed, the first place my thoughts go are to what people have said or done to me in my life.

I’m nearly 22 years old, and I need to take charge a little more. I need to not allow people to get the better of me. Just last week I let a person with special needs eat at me, something he said, anyway. I saw him after working out so I was in nasty ratty old clothes that fit poorly but were the best I had for working out in and he told me I got fat, mind you I haven’t really seen him in a couple years, but for the next few days it ate at me and I felt miserable.

I can’t allow that to happen anymore, especially if I want to learn to love myself more.

I’m way too sensitive.

I always had a problem w/ppl they would say things and it would impact my life! But I figured that hey who cares I better things to do so don’t worry about it!