party less

all i did these last few months was party, party, party… couldn’t help it.

last week – wednesday, thursday, friday and i’m going to do it today too. i suck, suck, suck.

how can i possibly be so bad at this… 4 nights last week. someone please help me, for fuck’s sake

i almost fail at school every single year because of this for like 5 years now. i actually do fail, i manage to end the year and have some grades which absolutely suck… which is exactly failing. so i need to stop for a while or just do it once a week or so… if i’m able to. now that’s gonna be a tough one.

College was my peak. It was bad. My roommates all managed or bartended at different bars, so every night was a literally a free-for-all someplace. 7-nights-a-week I basically blacked out. Somehow I graduated with a decent degree (albeit mediocre grades) and now have a very good job.

It’s definitely been a slow progression down the party scale since college, but still no where near the level it needs to be at. It’s a work in progress, but at least I’m moving in the right direction.

I didn’t go out partying for 3 weeks, which was major me. Then when I did go out, I didn’t go crazy with alcohol etc. like I used to. I’m not going to stop partying altogether, but I’ve definitely slowed down the pace. It’s still going to take some work, but I’m getting there

I’m amazed I’ve lasted this long!

There are so many things going on and I REALLY want to go!! I know I can’t though…if I do I’m going to end up dropping out of college..and THEN I’d be in trouble..

without partying. God this is boring.

Haven’t gone out yet this week. I’m trying to go out a maximum of 2 nights a week…we’ll see how it goes!