get my heart broken

it was a horrible experience – but it has made me who i am today.

my entire body is being burned by electricity,
and i refuse to let go of the socket.
i don’t want to lose anything, i want to lose everything.

Todaysies :D
5 stages
Shock
Sadness
Anger
Rage/Revenge
Acceptance
It ran its course

If I get enough cracks in it like I have right now and have gotten before it will just shatter and then I won’t be able to blame it on anyone. Maybe thats the best idea for me…

the desire to do this. I understand curiosity and even some degree of masochism, but not this. I’m slightly masochistic, rather self destructive, and I’m curious about what a lot of things- even terrible things- must feel like, but I don’t have goals to achieve these experiences. I’m sure I’ll never truly know what such things are like unless I expeience them personally, but I’m trying to avoid the really bad experiences in life. I might be curious, but I don’t want to know THAT badly. Unless you’ve had a loved one die, you can’t understand what it’s like, but do you want to lose someone to death? Of course that is somewhat different, since that hurts someone else, as well, whereas heartbreak is sometimes one sided. Another example- unless you have a disease, you can’t understand what it’s like to have it, but do you want to become ill with it?

Heartbreak sucks. You might think you want it, but if you truly wanted it, it probably wouldn’t be heartbreak. However, I think if and when it happens to you, you won’t want it and you won’t like it- and you’ll probably curse yourself for ever asking for it. If you end up getting completely over it and not caring in the least that it happened to you, and you are as happy as ever again with no remorse for the event, then maybe you can eventually be happy it happened if you gained something from it and the other person came out okay in the end, as well. However, a lot of people keep a scar from it always. When someone close yo uou dies the pain usually lessens with time, but some of that hurt is always there. There is a scar. When someone breaks your heart, a similar thing often happens- the hurt lessens with time, but the scar remains. Be careful what you wish for- you don’t even know what you’re asking to experience. I say this because, as I said, if you haven’t felt it, you can’t truly know exactly what it’s like.

Honestly, it’s almost insulting to sit here and see people who WANT to experience this. You all are the lucky ones for having never experienced it and you are asking for a terrible experience that has hurt so many people and will likely hurt most everyone- and you don’t even truly know what it is your asking for. I know we all want different things. Some people want to have a child and can’t while others get pregnant and are scared and depressed about it. Yet, heartbreak is just such a negative, painful thing, and to see people who have nmo idea what it’s like say they want to experience it when I know what it’s like, just kind of sickens me a little inside. Although I think you’d probably question your sanity making this goal when your heart is broken, I still can’t wish you luck in it- even though the goal peeves me. I can’t wish you luck in it, because while someone might think my slight bitterness might make me wish it upon you so you could understand, I’d rather not wish it upon you. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone I didn’t hate- and even then, I’d have to hate them pretty badly. You know, some people have killed themselves over this thing you’re asking for. Heartbreak sucks. It’s never something you want when it happens to you. It’s not like pregnancy which one might want desperately and enjoy immensely or want to avoid desparately and hate all the way through. This is something no one enjoys.

As for not knowing what love is like until you’ve had your heart broken- getting your heart broken doesn’t cause love- love causes heartbreak. Heart break might help you realize your feelings a little more, but if you are truly in love you will likely know this before your heart is broken. Also, if you really love someone, you won’t want them to break your heart. I don’t know what people with this goal are thinking. I never had this goal- it just happened. I hope you never get what you’re asking for here, but if you do, I hope you make it through alright.

One last thing- I am surprised at the number of people who appreciated the experience. Slightly over half on one of these goals and slightly under half on the other one. I don’t know anyone in my offline life, who is happy about it at all. And as for learning things- yes, you learn things, but sometimes they are things that you might be as well off not knowing, and might prefer not to know. For instance, knowing that even true love dies does not help me. It helps no one. And it comes with a huge cost. Also, while I admit that it makes me feel a bit wiser, it also makes me feel a bit colder and a bit sadder. I’d trade all of this worthless and depressing knowledge for his heart again.

I’ve never been in love, and therefor have never had my heart broken. I feel like I need to have my heart broken in order for me to know what true love is when it really appears, but only one guy I’ve ever dated has broken up with me, and though my heart got a little bruised in that relationship(as well as my pride…) it wasn’t even close to a fracture…

i dun wan to b heartbroken agen..not anymore…

You don’t know what you have until it is gone. Once you have had a ^true heartbreak you appreciate happiness and love once you’ve found it. You are more carefull with love and hold it dear…

I only say it´s worth doing because, after all the suffering and the pain is gone, you are able to look back at the relationship and learn a lot from it.

But it hurts like hell to get your heart broken.

but he wanted me to quit seeing all the friends we shared and insisted I move to another church. sigh… it was when I was only 14. so many years and broken hearts ago.

This is kind of a pessimistic goal, but I’m really just kind of curious as to what it’s like.