stop my internet addiction

So, I am reading a novel/self-help style book where Ganesha, the elephant god, tells the main character that he cannot change his state of mind. Even if he gives up TV and reads a book, sure enough, a few weeks later, he will be watching TV again. So instead of changing himself, which is impossible, Ganesha tells him to change his environment. In the book, the character throws out his couch, so that he breaks his habit of coming home from work and sitting on the couch and watching TV.

I am thinking about moving the chair in front of my computer somewhere else, so that anytime I try to use the internet, it will be very uncomfortable to do so.

I want to give it up, NOW DAM IT! I am addicted to hentai porn and masturbate almost everyday for years now, except for the couple of times I went for a week. That bad. I’m now a pale white guy with no muscles, no friends, no life, and acne.

I first wanted to just get ride the my acne, which ive had since 12, and found out that masturbation causes a hormone imbalance which causes acne. I figure if I can stop masturbating long enough I can balance my hormones, get rid of my acne, get some sunlight, and get back on track with my life.

I no longer feel as much of a need to be on the computer all the time, I’ve been reading instead, which is much more constructive. I am so close to accomplishing this goal, I just know it : )

is there an aa for this, lol?

My main thing to do is make music, I also go to a school for music. But sometimes, its like i’m only doing 2 things in life, making music and reading the internet. Everytime I take a break from making music, which I do on my PC, I grab my laptop to go check whats new on the internet, I do the same stupid stuff I do when I should be sleeping (see my going to bed early entry). I check my email too much, I check the news sites too much, I check the gossip blogs too much, all for no reason, or maybe just to have something to do/read. Also, sometimes when I’m not all that inspired to go and make some music, I click on my internet explorer and start browsing, for hours… Also, when I’m making music, and I for instance hear something reminding me of a song I know, I start to check for the song on youtube, find the artist on wikipedia, check his discography on Amazon, read his biography, check what gear they used, and befor I know it, I’m no longer making music but I’m doing a study on 10 diffirent musicians. And this happens all the time! I should really unplug my computer from the internet more often. I also need to find something better to do in my breaks, not involving watching a screen, tv or laptop, or Nintendo DS etc.

each with his own addiction.
if mine happens to be a rather dinky one this doesn’t mean it’s any less worse
it’s a fusion between internet addiction,porn addiction&soap addiction

beware...the fanfiction addiction!naruto fanfiction,to be more specific

it goes on like this:when i get home i throw myself in front of my pc,and remain glued there till late at night,dreaming&drooling over fake,mushy and poorly written pieces of fanfiction.crappy ‘love stories’ full of smut made by and for 11 year old girls.

i don’t do anything else,although i eventually complete with hentai&doujinshi.i then jerk off,go to bed, and the next day i start again

i’ve lost my friends. i haven’t talked to anyone in months.i’m failing in class.i’ve dropped my projects…and you know..all the stuff that usually happens with any drug
gee..maybe i’m lucky to be able to experience the same consequences so cheap.fanfiction doesn’t cost.and it gets me high too

now it may not sound like a big deal,but i’m seriously having a hard time here
so if you had any similar experiences or feel like helping a fellow human in need,drop me a line at
numbdork@hotmail.com
this thing is eating me alive

plan. strategize.

...And I successfully only checked my e-mail 2X today. Yahoo 1X and MySpace 2X. Much better. Let’s see how I do tomorrow. This was not easy. I did, however, not look at “his” MySpace. For that I am very proud.

I am going to quit this cold turkey. I don’t need to check Hotmail, yahoo & myspace 50 million times per day. This is sick. I really need to purge myself of this nasty habit. Ok, so here’s the deal: I am only going to check my e-mail 1 time in the morning when I get into work and then one time before I leave. Easier said than done. Let’s see how I do today.

Heh—bad goal, again. What does it mean? Not come here anymore? What about this then? How will I accomplish my goals? I need to find a better goal. I don’t even know if this is such a huge problem anymore, although it seems like I’m more addicted than ever!