Kick my addictions

I have come to the conclusion that Klonopin is just another ‘natural’ chemical in my body. NOT! But I feel SO bad when I get down to half a mg., that it’s not even worth trying to kick this. Not now, anyway. So, I’m back to taking that ammount in the morning and again at night. I don’t feel sick anymore, and the pressure in the backs of my eyes is gone. So is the tunnel vision, and the out of control stress.

What’s next? I think I’ll start weaning off the Soma. I take 350 mg. three times a day. I’ll see what I can do starting next Monday.

OK. I stopped the Klonopin. Tuesday was the last time I took any, and I’m feeling it. I HATE withdrawal! It’s like being trapped in a tiny box. Everything is amplified. To think that I have 3 drugs to go is almost unbearable. One step at a time means nothing when you feel this bad.

OK…I’m stuck on the 1/2 mg. of Klonopin! Guess I’ll have to cut THAT in half. GEEEEEEEEEEES

I don’t sleep well. This past night was horrible. I was feeling the beginning stages of withdrawal ALL #*&king night, even though I took all my meds. Right now, I feel like the walking dead! Ended up taking my morning meds at 5:00 instead of 7:00. Also took a full MG of Klonopin…the drug I am almost done with. I’m just now beginning to feel the meds kick in but, my mouth still feels like it’s stuffed with cotton and my brain is still ringing a bit.
Have you ever smelled a junky or an alcoholic? Not nice. I smell like a *^%king junky! I may NEED to resort to desparate measures. Maybe I really should do SOME kind of cleanse. Would it help with all of the excess build-up of drugs and other nasty things in my vital organs? I wonder…

I have cut back another half mg. on one of my meds. In one week, I should be free of that one anyway. Then I’ll start on the second one.
Bad news though…been taking too much of another. Got it under control today.

I have a medical condition called fibromyalgia. This disorder is very painful, and can be debilitating at times. It affects your whole being but, the pain comes from within the muscles and joints. The muscles harden as if being flexed, which in itself is very painful. But when they harden, they pull on the ligaments, tendons & joints, making movement of any kind quite unbearable. Conventional doctors treat this with pain killers and muscle relaxers which isn’t TOO bad if it’s only for a few weeks at a time. My last severe flair-up lasted for a little more than a year. I’m now phisically addicted to four prescription drugs.
3 months ago I began to slowly ween myself off of one drug. I was taking 3 mg. per day, and am now down to 1mg/PD. I have a long way to go but am trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s difficult sometimes because I don’t know anyone who’s ever had this problem, and it’s hard for others, family especially, to understand.
I know I’m not alone. Many people have prescription addictions. It would be nice to talk to someone whose in the same boat.