find someone who understands me

i really feel no one really understands me. like i’m alone in the world. i mean i’m smart and pretty, and that makes most people scared of me. i don’t think i’ll ever understand why. i know so much about so many things, but i just can’t seem to care about alot of stuff that other people care about. like what movie stars are doing, or who slept with who, or who won the football game last week.
stuff like that just doesn’t hold my interest. having ADD doesn’t help much either.

maybe i’m just doomed to be misunderstood

its pretty simple. i want someone to love me for me…and want to be around me out of admiration not obligation….

Like all relationships they start out great but fall apart once the other person realizes that they simply can’t deal with me. And in all fairness I am not an easy man to be with so I can’t really blame them. If only I could find a woman who understands and would continue to love me despite my failings.

How lucky I am to have two people in my life right now that I believe truly do understand me.

One, a friend of many years, takes the words out of my mouth and juggles with them changing them into something more powerful.

Two, a woman who has changed my life, She brings out my want to “do things” and affects me more then she’ll ever know.

How lucky I am to have two people in my life right now that I believe truly do understand me.

One, a friend of many years, takes the words out of my mouth and juggles with them changing them into something more powerful.

Two, a woman who has changed my life, She brings out my want to “do things” and affects me more then she’ll ever know.

i met this amazing guy. He was so perfect for me, Heck i still love him, but here’s the thing i screwed it up. Not beyond recegnition but bad enough that we arn’t together right now. We are a 1000 miles away from eachother now, but we still talk and talk about maybe getting back together sometime in the future. But for now i feel so empty without him. I feel like he still have everything but we are apart. It’s hard for me to talk to him about this though. I know he still loves me just thats whats hard, being far away but so close in our hearts. I wish this feeling could just be easy to let go but it not. his memories are everywhere i turn. work, school, home, everywhere! I just wish we could get over this and i know it’s going to take time for him to forgive me just i’m scared that it’s going to be to late for both of us. I want him, i want to be with him and know he’ll never leave. but for now i’m just empty.

i think fate should do the work not me, people who understood me already have came and left, really dont want new people to understand im not ready to deal with the grief of them leaving anymore, i’ve just had it from PEOPLE!!!! I wish i can leave EVERYTHING behinf me and simply GO Far from every single person i’ve known ….

I don’t wanna say it’s impossible but it’d be extremely difficult to find someone that just COMPLETELY understands you…and it’d even be kinda creepy. So, I’m gonna say I’m grateful for the people in my life who make an effort to understand me and “get me” on a certain level. Firstly, my sister Alana…she understands me about 90% and although she doesn’t really agree with things I do or make an effort to understand them but still, she’s the greatest. Then there’s Jessica…we have a crazy understanding of each other, one that not a lot of people get. I understand her and she understands me…on things that no one else gets. So it’s kinda like we need each other for that support and just knowing “WOW, she gets it!” feels so great. Then there’s my aunt paula…I think she gets me because we think kinda alike. But what I really love are the people who just GET IT…they’re just so intuitive. It’s kinda scary sometimes because when you get used to talking to shallow people who aren’t really “there” or listening and then switch to someone who really listens and understands and challenges you it’s like whoa. Those people in my life would definitely be my friends Tristan and Dani…completely different people but the same in ways they both wouldn’t realize. You can just tell by the way a person looks at you when you talk. This entry is really self-centered but it’s not even so much understanding me as it is about the value of people who take the time to understand everything. I think everyone needs at least ONE like this. I know there are so many people who probably feel like they’re not heard or that they don’t matter. I’m not gonna lie, I’ve always been a great listener but I think I’m starting to pride myself on it so much that I’m not doing as well anymore. I am going to make a conscious effort to really just let people know that I’m not only listening but I care…even just the way you look at someone can let them know…i don’t know, I’m rambling. But seriously you never know how many other people in the world have this same goal…why not be that someone to them?

she gets everything about me.

The guy who knows me inside and out is my ex-boyfriend. He knew things about my personailty that I didnt even know. He would know when I wanted something without me having to ask or say anything. I just wish things would of work’d out cuz i love him a lot…