risephoenix is happy.
Well, 3 days ago I finally went to visit my biological maternal grandmother and my biological mother. I haven’t seen much of them since they abandoned me when I was 13.
I’ve been working on my goal to forgive. So it wasn’t as upsetting as usual to see them.
They both have changed in recent years. My mother became Born Again, and my grandmother had a couple strokes which caused her to re-evaluate her life. Now they both have more peace and are much nicer to me. I think the fact that I am an adult now, and like a stranger to them helps too. They don’t know how to deal with people who are dependent on them, but they are southern, and very hospitable to guests.
Sometimes I’m afraid if I get closer to them they will get all critical and nasty again. Maybe, maybe not. I’m going to give it a try anyway. They can’t hurt me now like they did when I was a child.
I feel sorry for them. They both have health issues and live alone.
My mother likes to talk even more than I do, and her mother likes to talk even more than that! I don’t mind listening to a bunch of stories about the good old days and people I don’t know. They are good storytellers, and it seems to make them happy to have an audience.
My mother said she loved me. My grandmother gave me a hug. That was especially strange of my grandmother because she used to hate to be touched by me.
My grandmother gave me a large needlepoint of Renoir’s “Lady with Dog.” She said her mother (my great-grandmother) made it.
I guess this all went pretty well. =)
