show more emotion

I have never shown emotion well, weither it be happiness,sadness,or anger. I can remember when I was in the 10 or 11 grade my teacher had shown us a movie on holocaust and told us to write a paper on how it made us feel. I thought that the movie was very sad and I wrote about how I felt. My teacher did not like my paper so she then “questioned my attachment to the humanity.” I then apologized that the ink on my paper was not smugged with my tears. For that comment I had to write an apology letter to her.

I still have the paper and now that I read it seems more like a research paper than a paper on my emotions.

I want to be able to express my emotions easily. From high school to now I feel that I have improved on this a lot but I would perfer to be very open with them.

Nope, I don’t. I think I might have APD. I tend to just bottle up all my problems and never show people what I am feeling. I rarely smile. I just don’t know how to show emotion. I wish I could though, then I’d be more human. I think being so emotionless is what keeps people away from me. Maybe I’m viewed as a “machine”, but I want people to know that I am a human.

Man, when you’re raised by a string of traditional manly-men step dads, this goal is tough. Nearly 30 and I still just shut off when I’d be better off expressing myself.

It really makes me put myself out there. In the past I have just kind of “shut off” making myself inaccessible and difficult to talk to. By showing more emotion it makes me easier to approach, but I am still worried about getting hurt like in the past

It makes me easier to read and gives more oppurtunites for friendship to occur