stop letting fear control my life

it has gotten to the point where it is affecting my health. i need to take control and stop letting fear control my life. otherwise it’s going to kill me. i need to stop being so fearful of everything – of every single step that i take in life. i need to trust myself more and know that i’ll get through things and that i don’t need to worry so much.

but where do i even begin to get this goal accomplished?

i live it, i breath it… it’s always there.

F-E-A-R

I hate it… it’s a useless and negative thing. It prevents life from being lived and progress from being made.

Fear needs to go find someone else to stalk, because I am DONE!

I’ve really identified this as something I want to change in my life this year. Fear is normal, but I am blocked in so many areas because I worry, worry, worry about everything that could go wrong. Haven’t got much idea about where to go with this…but it is probably sprirtual. It is in my attitude.

i’m afraid of failing so i dont even try
i’m afraid of getting lost so i dont drive to new places
i’m afraid of getting hurt so i dont tell people how i feel

and the list goes on. i need to learn how to stop worrying and take risks, because one of these days those risks should pay off, right? i dont know how to stop worrying though

Slowly, with the help of a friend. I am learning to accept myself and trust people. It’s not an area I would have thought I would be working on at this point in time but when opportunity knocks… :) I have a way to go but it’s scary and rewarding at the same time to push my boundaries.

and when I ignore it, I realize later that I made a mistake my fear was trying to prevent me from making. Sometimes fear is good, or at least worth listening to.

In some ways I am making progress, taking small steps and learning that my fears are not founded. It is a very conscious exercise for me. I do feel better about some of the things I have faced lately and I know that I will be a better person because of this. There are plenty of other areas to work on but being aware of when fear is stopping me is a big step forward.

I am afraid of getting a new job, or at least putting myself into a situation that I am not certain I can be successful at.

I am afraid of confrontation, or situations where I think there may be a confrontation.

I am afraid of appearing silly in new situations. So that keeps me from doing things spontaneously, (which is silly).

I tackled some tasks that had been lingering. While I didn’t get everything finished, starting was progress. One task is nearly complete. One has me stuck and I am making progress on a couple others. I felt pretty good about the week.

During a conversation with some folks I work with, a topic came up that caused me some discomfort. Anyway, at the time, I didn’t handle the situation very well and my anger got the best of me (though it was only breifly). The person who started the conversation felt bad about the situation and apologized, but it wasn’t his fault that things got uncomfortable.

This was bothering me for a few days and I finally talked to him and explained that he hadn’t done anything wrong. I did my best to explain the situation and why I had reacted like I had. It was a difficult conversation to have with someone I barely know, and trust me, fear was fighting me over this. I am happy to say that I faced my fear and did what I felt was the right thing to do.

Whew, it was challenging though…