Be more optimistic

Hmm… following on from my last entry, the guy I mentioned, I’ve not seen or spoken to him in around a month now. I don’t know why. He’s rarely on MSN any more and when he is he doesn’t talk to me, and he never calls or texts anyway ‘cos that’s the way he is.

In this case, absence does not make the heart grow fonder. While I still think I like him, he’s not on my mind 24/7 like he was, so fuck it.

Today I found out that my sister is moving down to Poole in October, which, I must say, I’m not that pleased about because I thought me and her were really getting closer recently, but I guess it’s her life and she lives it for herself, not others. I think if I handle the move positively when the time comes, I will tick this goal off.

EDIT: What are the damned chances… he’s just started talking to me now. >.>

Almost every day I wake up and realize that I’m not satisfied with my life, because it seems to be way too full of negative emotions and stuff. Have to be more positive, that’s definite. Now all I have is to find a way to do that!

I think I am getting exceptionally close to ticking this goal off. In recent months my mood has been higher in general and I have been trying to see the positives in every situation. I feel happier and more confident in myself.

I have had downers, as we all do, and for a lot of this year, they have been intense but short-lived, and I feel refreshed after each one… tends to be that I bounce back in a hyperactive mood most often!

Part of me wants to believe that both the ups and the downs have been thanks to a certain male friend I have made this year, who I feel close to, moreso than he does me. But alas, I will keep in regular contact with him and see where it takes us.

Recently a lot of things have happened that have led me to feel like the world’s conspiring to make me miserable. Of course, I’m aware that this is an extremely arrogant and self-centred view of the world, which is the thing within myself that I’m trying to change. I want to be the sort of person who doesn’t allow outside events to damage how i feel about myself or my goals. I want to see the bright side of the bad things that happen, and let them make me stronger instead of bitter.

I think that as my confidence increases, so does my optimism. In the last two weeks I’ve faced a painful breakup and I’ve lost most of my friends, but somehow I’m not that depressed over it. Obviously it’s still upsetting, but not to a point where I can’t continue to live my life and enjoy other things.

Lately my main goal is simply to just be happy. Sounds pretty basic, but it wasn’t always like that. I would be so convinced that nothing would ever get better that I would waste time thinking about the past and just wanting things to go back to the way they were.

Now, I feel like I’m a lot more open to change, even though it’s still hard for me. I just hope it stays this way! Then maybe I can finally check off this goal.

Pessimism isn’t worth it anymore. x]

My first step is to read “Learned Optimism” by Martin P Seligman. I’ll build an action plan once I’ve completed the text.

http://www.amazon.com/Learned-Optimism-Change-Your-Mind/dp/1400078393/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1237167117&sr=8-1

maybe i’ll stand on my head

hostia y hostion… el tiempo todo lo cura

Quizas sea peor que el hombre por caer MAS de una vez en la misma piedra pero ya no mas….

a partir del dia de hoy todo va ser mejor =)

i remember seeing shirts like that when i was kid. I dont want to wear my heart on my sleeve anymore, it seems i share too much. Im not sure why, but I know I want to change that part of me that some days seems to haunt me. I feel like my atmosphere is very negative at times and because I thrive on my atmosphere, I become weak in those times. I need to find the strength to change that and become more confident. As i write this, I know that Im alot stronger than I used to be. Im certainly not where I want to be in life and I wonder if that plays a big role in things. Part of my judgements come from jealousy and part of my judgement comes from the way someone presents themselves. They can never be combined as the judgement takes on a role of itself. After all that is said, I know in my heart that I need to stop. I feel as though I have created a habit that has lasted most of my life, so I need to treat like a habit. I need to remind myself that I am not perfect and I need to start loving people through there faults, flaws and victories. I thought I was pretty secure till I messed up a few weeks ago. I feel like I cant forgive myself and Im not sure how to fix it. I will take the right steps today and stop by the library and get a book on the subject of becoming more positive…..