facebook less

I was so close to getting rid of it. i deleted xanga and twitter, stopped using aim. i deactivated facebook for a week and felt way better, and when i reactivated it i didn’t feel the need to check it constantly until i got a totally unexpected post from someone i knew that sparked a new friendship and COMPLETELY turned my life around (for the better, i hope). except now it seems to be dying down and im getting so paranoid, and i just keep checking, coming up with bizarre reasons why hasn’t he said anything to me, why he’s been online and commented HER pictures but not talked to ME. and i keep checking telling myself that i’m going to miss something completley life changing like that if i don’t…

I feel so lost and torn up inside. Whenever i’m home, i probably check several times every hour, even though i wait until later to reply so that nobody is aware of my problem. i’d go out with people instead but most of my friend/relationships are in rough patches and all i can do is wait to move out at this point [too bad that’s not until a year from now]. the question is why do I keep checking if none of these people are really my friends?
Should i try the sunday thing? set up email notifications?? help!

finally i had enough and i deleted people that were toxic in my life as friends on facebook.
first off i had to convince myself facebook is not real life, and doesn’t matter, i’m sick of fake online identities and people talkign to me on facebook instead of putting in the time to call me or apologize to me in person.

i miss the old days where you only had contact through telephone and there weren’t all these weird ways to contact people that are so much less personal and easier to be decieving and just all together less thoughtful.

SOOO i deleted those guys that hurt me, because looking at their facebook and pictures only hurt me more and i’m not going to kid myself any longer that i want them back or that i want any relationship with them.

it doesn’t even matter, but it took alot of courage for me to delete them as friends. and i finally am beginning to see that i shouldn’t take facebook so seriously because not being facebook friends is NOT the end of the world. =)

i need to quit facebook

i have to

it is severely affecting my psyche.

i tried deleting her
like that was the problem
but no he was the problem
so i could 1. delete him or 2. quit facebook

i need to figure this out.
it’s getting out of hand to feel like i die a little bit inside everytime i see what his activities are.
why should i care.

i have to hide him as a friend.
and if the truth isn’t clear, that he’s desperate and doesn’t care about me
that i’m kidding myself completely

i need to stop obsessing and live my life.

live my life and stop being so careful about whats posted blah blah

i just feel betrayed hard, some things i believe are meant to be private

relationships end for a reason and spying on the person is the dumbest shit ever and i’m guilty

it’s over.
and go figure i’m happy with another guy.
it’s over.
it’s over.

as my man says, facebook is destroying the world.

oh it is at least doing the above to my life.

it is a waste of time.
it gets me doing tons of crap for people i don’t even care about.
it gets me jealous, aggravated, nosy, obsessed.

i want to limit this to 10 minutes a session?
an hour a day?
i really don’t know, maybe i will get some ideas by reading a few success stories.

all i know is that it feels like a black hole that is sucking me in.

and was stalking all day yesterday so I have now deleted my fb.

Today, Tuesday March 3rd, I will change my settings on my Facebook so that I will receive notifications for messages and event invitations via e-mail. I dedicate Sundays to be Facebook day. If it’s not Sunday, I do not login. I have wasted far too much time clicking and scrolling for no avail.

My settings are now adjusted, and I have logged out of Facebook until Sunday.

I am done wasting time with this life-sucking social networking crap!!!

I haven’t been to fb at all! A friend wrote on my wall but I got it via email so I texted her back a reply. I feel slightly like if I am not there, people forget to include me in things but I don’t really mind at the moment. I’m so proud that I haven’t even wondered what J is writing. I’m just not interested anymore, and I’m really pleased about that.

I’m going to mark this done now as fb really isn’t part of my life anymore, and I feel great about that.

again i slipped up and viewed my bf’s page on facebook which made me feel confused and when i feel confused i feel anxiety followed by wanting to cry… facebook makes me feel confused disoriented and disconnected…. i freaked because he has posts from some random chick on his page and i dont know her. turns out shes from his grade school but it makes me feel confused because neither of us know her in real life yet they communicate. avoiding facebook except for bare communication will leave me less jealous and analyzing, less confused and irrationally fearful. i have too much an imagination that everything i’ve never come across before is something bad..

I’m on the right track again. I slipped badly since the last time I wrote an entry. But last week I stole Mayor’s idea to only go there on Sundays, that kept me going for the 3 days until last Sunday. It got to Sunday and I didn’t want to go! So I didn’t!

Today I kind of feel like checking but I’m not going to as I missed my chance on Sunday. I think I only want to go when I’m bored or feel like spying on J. And I have it set up to email me if someone sends a message and no one has so I know I’m not actually missing anything.

FB is a stupid addiction and not going there is helping me to achieve my goals.