cut back on my drinking

I’m doing really good with this right now! I go out maybe once a week if that and only have a few drinks. I feel a lot better and it is helping me to focus my energy elsewhere.

I am in definate need of doing this. My drinking really started to escalate at some point in college and has continued ever since, especially since I work in the hospitality industry. I don’t think I am an alcoholic per say, but I definately may have a problem with binge drinking. Some weeks I will go out a few times and drink excessive amounts and then I can go a few days to a week without it. I usually drink more when I am living here on the island in Georgia than when I am away from here. I think I need to reevaluate why I do it so much and redirect my focus elsewhere.

... although not brilliantly … it all seems to be about small steps and little victories … hopefully I will be able to continue doing relatively well ….

... overall I am not doing too badly … keep trying to not beat myself up when I do not do brilliantly. Overall I am doing much better than I was but I fail miserably when I am under stress at work which seems to be pretty much all the time.

I wish I could feel like I was managing to deal with things in my life but I feel so stupid and pathetic …just feel like I have no control over anything :-(

I guess I will come out of this stronger and, with a bit of luck, better able to deal with things …

Well this goal is not working out for me so good. Lots of stress on me and hubby so were both at it. I drink less then him but not less for me. Ive had more days on then off, today is off for me but then the weekend comes around and people come over whatever. If I can even go four days I would feel better. Grrrr its just so hard. At night when the kids are down its what we do to relax and chill.

I am back to trying again … have had a very bad week, very stressful and that makes it much harder for me to resist. I keep telling myself that I can do this, I just need to stop panicking and be strong …

Day two and almost over. Im going to see if I can hold out for the weekend. My hubby called me from band practic and put one of my friends on the phone. So they are all over there havin a few beers so it kinda made me feen a bit but its all good. I know hes going to come home all buzzed and chatty, lol. Hes gonna make me want to drink damn it, I’ll just pass out before he gets home.

So Saturday night was a blast! Went up to crestline, music, bbq, drinks it was great. So yes I drank Saturday, Sunday and Monday. My weekend with my hubby, he gets sunday and mondays off. Did not get drunk or anything well did on Saturday but it was all good. It was a good weekend and now its back to no drinks for the week :) lets see how it goes.

Ok, so I got through the last two nights without drinking and thats pretty good. Most of the time I’ll have at least one drink on the second day. Well tonight is the night of our lil get away. Yes I will be drinking and singing and hangin out with good friends. Im going to try not to get out of line, I really dont think I will. I just really want to cut back. Times like tonight are ok, its when it gose on through out the week I start to worrie. So, I’m going to enjoy myself tonight and not get crazy anyother time when its not called for. You know like when Im home doing nothing. Im gonna try to keep it social only when we go or weekend thing, and we dont go out much at all. Like once a month. lol See ya all later

So yesterday was my birthday and I got pretty buzzed with the hubby. Not like we went out or anything we do most of our drinking at home. Anywho I feel like shit today because I had to have those last two beers. Its so stupid when I think about it. Why do I do it? So Saturday were going to a friends house for the night. Lil get away and Im really looking forward to it. Now my goal is not only not to drink before then but not to over do it that night. I know it will be hard because no kids, friends, jammin, hell out of my house sometimes I get carried away. Well not this weekend I want to be able to enjoy the next day without a hangover. Eat good food, walk to the lake shop whatever just not hungover or trying to drink the hangover away. We will see how it goes.