stop being afraid of rejection

This is alot harder than I thought it would be.

I am about to invite myself to a party I wasn’t invited to. Lets see if I get rejected a bit nervous about… sigh

after everything I’ve been through i can now say that i think everyone has to take a chance even if it means getting hurt, if i hadn’t taken a chance i wouldn’t be with the love of my life right now, so fear is not a factor for me!

My boss is anti-nice. And he really has to becareful because one day he’s going to be mean to the wrong person. So far this morning he has yelled at me, Jason, Heather, Faiek and the entire VAS team all for things that he is supposed to have done but he has palmed off on us. I love the work I do right now, I feel I make a real difference working with the engineers and fixing the seemly unfixable faults, I work terribly hard yet my boss doesn’t know how to give credit. This is where I feel rejected strongly, I hear that the good things are always forgotten and the bad things never. That seems true in this environment.

I do my best to deliver ‘silver’ service to my customers. This upsets my colleagues because they’ve all been working in this department for several years longer than I have been working here and they just don’t care anymore, apparently while I was sick the fact that I emailed a client from my own email address and not the departmental address was turned into a big fuss. Apparrently I didn’t make prior arrangements before I was sick so they had to find some one to help out, never been an issue with the rest of them, but I have to actually plan to be sick, I really feel rejected here, I’ve won two awards since I’ve been here and they cannot tolerate that I impress clients and provide them with results instead of excuses. Why should I not do that, I really feel rejected here and I am not sure how to handle this…sigh.

I am scared to phone people because what if they don’t want to hear from me, I don’t email old friends,I don’t call and I don’t friend people on Facebook because if they wanted me to be their friend, they would have asked, wouldn’t they? I feel that if people have forgotten me it must be something to do with me, I am so scared of rejection, my life has really been spent on the couch, I need to get over this, I need luck for this one.

Sure, I’m now going out with the person I was afraid of being rejected by.
And I did tell him how I felt.
I just happened to be drunk at the time… all in all, not the best way to go about it. He felt the same way though, and I always remember everything I say/is said when I’m drunk.

At least good came out of it.
But I wouldn’t recommend this method.

Most of 2007 being afraid to tell people how I feel.
I’m not sure how I will accomplish this as I’m not the most confident person ever, but hopefully something will hit me and I’ll get my act together!

Rejection and suffering makes you who you are. If life was a bed of roses we would never know how to deal with problems (and problems are inevitable in life), it’s how you deal with these problems that make you who you are. You have to make a mistake to know to deal with it, hell you can make the same mistake a hundred times, it doesnt matter as long as you surmount it.

Im terrified of rejection…im so afraid that a guy i like or something wont like me back and i have been rejected numourous times..but those guys we’re selfish assholes…and i want to be able to approach a guy adn ask him if he wants to watch a movie with me.