When it comes to boyfriend, it’s like weather. He has some phases, every now and then, so his love has ups and downs. I would like it to be more permanent. Five days a week he raises me up in the sky, everything is just like heaven, but the other two days I can only guess how dark his mind is. I can never know for sure – and knowledge is power.
He’s giving me security and comfort – but if it’s just in periods, is it even worth? Or should I build my confidence on the saying “we can only lean on ourselves”?
I think (or should think) that I don’t deserve to be rejected. But, where to get strength?
“Then I see you standing there
I’m all I’ll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
All of the moments that already passed
We’ll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that’s wonderful, and that’s life
And that’s you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love”
Jun 24, 03:27PM PDT | 0 comments
i kinda like realy need help faceing rejecition. im scared of rejection becouse i dont want to be hurt. i know that at one time or another every one has to be rejected but i realy just dont want to.
May 24, 10:15PM PDT | 0 comments
Almost immune
7 months ago
I admit I suffer when someone that I love and appreciate doesn’t share my thoughts and feelings. But, that doesn’t stop me from connecting with people. Maybe my problem is that I don’t have the golden middle – either I avoid every contact with some people, either I let them too deep and let myself depend on them. Surely, I made a big progress, but it’s not done yet.
May 03, 04:47AM PDT | 0 comments
This is alot harder than I thought it would be.
Aug 12, 2008, 11:03PM PDT | 0 comments
I am about to invite myself to a party I wasn’t invited to. Lets see if I get rejected a bit nervous about… sigh
Jul 14, 2008, 04:57AM PDT | 2 cheers | 1 comment
after everything I’ve been through i can now say that i think everyone has to take a chance even if it means getting hurt, if i hadn’t taken a chance i wouldn’t be with the love of my life right now, so fear is not a factor for me!
Jul 04, 2008, 03:59AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
My boss is anti-nice. And he really has to becareful because one day he’s going to be mean to the wrong person. So far this morning he has yelled at me, Jason, Heather, Faiek and the entire VAS team all for things that he is supposed to have done but he has palmed off on us. I love the work I do right now, I feel I make a real difference working with the engineers and fixing the seemly unfixable faults, I work terribly hard yet my boss doesn’t know how to give credit. This is where I feel rejected strongly, I hear that the good things are always forgotten and the bad things never. That seems true in this environment.
Jun 25, 2008, 11:42PM PDT | 0 comments
My colleagues
18 months ago
I do my best to deliver ‘silver’ service to my customers. This upsets my colleagues because they’ve all been working in this department for several years longer than I have been working here and they just don’t care anymore, apparently while I was sick the fact that I emailed a client from my own email address and not the departmental address was turned into a big fuss. Apparrently I didn’t make prior arrangements before I was sick so they had to find some one to help out, never been an issue with the rest of them, but I have to actually plan to be sick, I really feel rejected here, I’ve won two awards since I’ve been here and they cannot tolerate that I impress clients and provide them with results instead of excuses. Why should I not do that, I really feel rejected here and I am not sure how to handle this…sigh.
Jun 06, 2008, 01:37AM PDT | 2 cheers | 0 comments
Rejection...
18 months ago
I am scared to phone people because what if they don’t want to hear from me, I don’t email old friends,I don’t call and I don’t friend people on Facebook because if they wanted me to be their friend, they would have asked, wouldn’t they? I feel that if people have forgotten me it must be something to do with me, I am so scared of rejection, my life has really been spent on the couch, I need to get over this, I need luck for this one.
Jun 04, 2008, 11:06PM PDT | 4 cheers | 3 comments
Sure, I’m now going out with the person I was afraid of being rejected by.
And I did tell him how I felt.
I just happened to be drunk at the time… all in all, not the best way to go about it. He felt the same way though, and I always remember everything I say/is said when I’m drunk.
At least good came out of it.
But I wouldn’t recommend this method.
Feb 25, 2008, 09:22AM PST | 0 comments