be an academic.

So I’ve got a place to do a dphil starting this october. Now all I need is some MONEY. I’ve applied for funding, will it go well? I know not reader. Otherwise, I’m just going to have to work a bit, get my dad to pay for a bit/ defer for a year and save up. We’ll see.

my tutor wants me to start looking for a phd supervisor. Which is fun. So I emailed a tutor from my old uni to ask his opinion for potential supervisors, God willing I get some interesting feedback. I don’t really mind where- I’m equally open to staying at home or moving out, it depends on how much funding you get really anyway.

study more – make it a priority
read more – know more of the world
try more – take advantage of opportunities

Maybe its dissertation fatigue but I really feel my mental health slipping away with every passing hour I spend yelling to myself, trying to cobble together sentences about Milton and heresy and antitrinitarianism. Ugh.

Whispers in my ear…

‘You’ll get your undergrad God willing in 2008. Then would be the perfect time to opt out of English Lit for a year and take a year-long course in Islamic Studies…’

My dad would flip. My dad is not signing himself up for a lifetime of English Literature.

so… there are two MA’s that I’m interested in. They both cost approximately £3,000. One in my current university, one in London where my family is. I’m guessing that purely for financial reasons I’ll have to go for the London one because that way I can live with my parents, easy. I really, really don’t want to move back into the family home but hey, not real living costs…

I need to get down to looking properly at applying for my Masters. I know what I want to do- a Masters in Early Modern Studies. But I haven’t really given any time at all to doing some proper research. I’ll do it this week, God willing

I don’t think this is realistically going to happen for two reasons:
1) I spend too much time daydreaming about the future and being a perfect housewife/mother, to the extent that Foucault’s theory of power seems essentially irrelevant
2)I don’t have any money

I just have no focus. All over the shop.