be an academic.

After 3 years out of my undergrad, I have realized that I want to be a part of academia full time. I want to teach, research and study. I have the ball rolling to apply to masters program for fall 2009, and am taking the GREs in a month.

Maybe its dissertation fatigue but I really feel my mental health slipping away with every passing hour I spend yelling to myself, trying to cobble together sentences about Milton and heresy and antitrinitarianism. Ugh.

Whispers in my ear…

‘You’ll get your undergrad God willing in 2008. Then would be the perfect time to opt out of English Lit for a year and take a year-long course in Islamic Studies…’

My dad would flip. My dad is not signing himself up for a lifetime of English Literature.

so… there are two MA’s that I’m interested in. They both cost approximately £3,000. One in my current university, one in London where my family is. I’m guessing that purely for financial reasons I’ll have to go for the London one because that way I can live with my parents, easy. I really, really don’t want to move back into the family home but hey, not real living costs…

I need to get down to looking properly at applying for my Masters. I know what I want to do- a Masters in Early Modern Studies. But I haven’t really given any time at all to doing some proper research. I’ll do it this week, God willing

I don’t think this is realistically going to happen for two reasons:
1) I spend too much time daydreaming about the future and being a perfect housewife/mother, to the extent that Foucault’s theory of power seems essentially irrelevant
2)I don’t have any money

I just have no focus. All over the shop.