enjoy sex

As a young girl I went to a Catholic grade school and absorbed and took to heart EVERYTHING the priest said. Things like if you have pre-marital sex you will go to hell, if you masturbate you will go to hell. Definitely been working on this goal for almost 7 months. I want to be able to let go and f-ing enjoy it. Everyone else does!! F!

would the first step be finding someone who turns me on? like relaly does it for me..

(I dont’ know if I HAVE found anyone like that yet)

hmmm

I’ve had consentual sex ONCE and naturally I did not enjoy it .. at 21 this is a bit of a dissapointment. I want this because

1)it’s fun I hear
2)it would be way easier to have a romantic relationship if I didn’t have to tell anyone I’m with at some point that sex is not in the near future and may never even happen.
3)I want to explore the possabilities! see what Rachels’s sex life it all about! see what sort of relationships I like, and just know myself better!

so there. Just having sex isn’t enough. . I’m looking for something that might be half enjoyable . . and frankly it’s almost impossable for me becaue I’m burdened with the fact that I’m either going to have to fake enjoyment or kick them off right in the middle of sex. . . and I don’t want to be known for either of those, or have to try and fake something like that (truely, I’m nto able to fake anything anyways).It just wouldn’t be fair to do that to someone . .

All work and no play
makes Jack a dull boy.

Let’s live our dreams and become playful again.