get over mrw once and for all

I’m pretty excited!! I have a crush at work! I have also started dating someone. I don’t feel like he’s the only one for me anymore. Pretty excited about this change. Good luck to you,Michael! I will always love you, but I can move on! Peace and many blessings!

i talked to mrw yesterday and we discussed “us” if you can call it that. he said that he loved me, but he just didn’t have anything to offer me right now, especially financially. he then said he was coming down to the area to visit his daughter this weekend and that he wanted to see me. of course he didn’t come. of course he didn’t call. i spoke to his cousin and he said something that resonated with me. he said that i was “sweatin’” mr. his definition: allowing people to treat you any kinda way and still wanting to be with him. it stung, so i knew it was true. this weekend was the last straw. i don’t want to accept his calls. i’m done. after about two weeks, i should be straight. i will be very glad to cross this off my list…

so, i called MR’s cousin to snoop a little bit-his cousin that has always been trying to get with me. i struck up a little conversation-flirted a little bit. so, although i haven’t heard from jerky boy in over a month, now he’s blowing up my phone like 10 times in a row. he saw that i called on the caller id at his cousin’s, but no one gave him the message. he wants to come down and move to my city (an old offer that is no longer on the table.) he wants to know why my vm says that i check it frequently but i haven’t called. the old green eyed monster. but guess what? i didn’t call him back! hell to the no! i went to a concert tonight and saw the most dynamic, beautiful, artistic performer. don’t i deserve someone as fabulous as that? i will not settle. i’m getting over you…ha, ha!

i just talked to his cousin and spilled my guts. he has a new girlfriend and he makes me sick! i hate his fuc#$king a$$. so, he will now be just a dream guy. why can’t he love me? what’s wrong with me? why can’t he just be with me?

I love this man! This is the closest that I will ever get to uttering those words to him again, though! Unfortunately, he is emotionally, physically and mentally unavailable to me. I still love him, though! Somebody, HELP ME!!!