express my anger

It’s about expressing it heathily. Screaming and kicking aren’t healthy, find something you love to do and do it to calm yourself.

Anytime I feel my anger bubbling up, I want to cry instead. The day I really express it, the day I have a wonderful rant worthy of a Spike Lee movie, then I’ll have truly expressed my anger. I’m not good at it.

I’ve realized that while I’m very in tune with my emotions, I am really out of touch with my anger. That seems to be the one that I deny. I usually feel sadness instead but I’m sick of feeling sad and defeated all the time. Anger can be so empowering, if channeled the right way. I’m not really sure how to access my anger without just feeling sad but this is the start.

and assessing whats left over, is what I have been doing to get to the root of this feeling.

I’ve spent alot of time evaluating my life and actions, soul searching, taking responsibility for certain undesirable outcomes, and i realize something:
I have LEGITIMATE BEEF.

I dont intentionally hurt people. Hurting people is never the goal. But this is what has been done to me. There are some people in life who actually find JOY in rousing the anger/supressing the joy of others. Who has time for that crap?

Its anger directed with the specific intention to maim or hurt that is most painful and unforgivable to me. In my life, this kind of aggression has often come from enemies wearing the mask of friend.

OK so now what? How can I get rid off it? What do I do with this anger energy before it ends up making me sick?

and I feel it right in my gut, lingering there, almost making me sick. I dont think I can smile or supress it any longer.

Well, plunk ‘em.

it’s getting hotter in my town, so I’m more uncomfortable (when outside or in my stuffy house), I’m making extra sure I stick to fulfilling this goal in a positive manner. :)

it’s just I tend not to expres my anger for some time. I think “sitting on it” can sometimes give me a chance to see I was upset over a small thing, and therefore drop it, and that’s one thing, but at other times I can stew on something that really was an injustice and yet still say nothing about it. I think it’s time to speak up in such cases, and to speak up with finesse.

Someone got angry with me a few days ago. Not just the words, but the tone of voice carried a message that is still percolating through me. In other words, hearing words spoken in anger to me was valuable. Enlightening, even.

It seems, though, that whenever I get angry with someone, it only makes them angry, too, and turns them against me. It doesn’t get people to listen or understand. It doesn’t improve the situation.

I told someone off yesterday. I said what I felt and what I thought about what they were doing. I wonder if I have ended a friendship. But I stand by what I said. I even have some trust that it will work out for the best.

I can’t help but distrust people who try to rouse the beast of anger within me. I sometimes think people are being mischievious or they’re bored or being bratty when they say inflamatory/antagonistic things to get a reaction: I despise shit-disturbers! I want to find a healthy way to express it. Maybe through a sport or a workshop or something?