decide what I would like to do with the rest of my life

I want to work for/toward a cause. I want to help people. I’d like to work with children. I’d like to make some money doing it, but just enough to meet my needs (house, health insurance) plus a little extra (occasional vacations or gifts for the kids), I don’t need to get rich. I need to feel like I’m important enough to matter, but not be so important that I can’t take time off when I want it.

Now… what do I do?

As I am approaching 40, it’s probably time that I did..!

i give up. i’m going with the flow instead