write my essays

1. Planning and Development of Tourism
2. Global Tourism Strategies
3. Tourism Operations Management

My time and soul is free now!!! :) Let’s live!

1. “Is Locke’s atta.ck on the doc.trine of in.nate ideas effective?” · 1,500-2,000
2. “Is for.mal lo.gic useful in add.ressing philo.sophical issues?” · 1,500-2,000
3. “Describe your personal language history.” (Linguistics) · 2,000-2,500

Room inspection tomorrow? Kaboom.

3 more essays up, deadline next Friday:

“Critically discuss the regulative role of the Ideas of pure reason in the Critique of Pure Reason”
“Do you agree with Berkeley’s view (part 1, Section 23) that it is impossible to distinguish the existence of sensible objects from their being perceived? Does Berkeley’s immaterialist conclusion follow from this premise?”
“Does J.J. Thompson succeed in defending a right to abortion?”

Heidegger essay: check
Locke essay: check

Due to the usual combination of procrastination and illness they aren’t quite as good as they should be, but I’ve come to the end of my patience and am going to hand them in as they are.
Also, I’m incredibly pleased that I’m not going to have to pull an all-nighter as I suspected I would!
I might even get a decent nights sleep tonight – luxury!

I meant to have both essays drafted by the end of today.
I’m only 298 words into my Locke essay, and 0 into Heidegger. Both are 1500-2000 words, which isn’t so much, but is more than I’m managing.
This is so scary, as these are the essays with absolutely no extensions on unless it’s a genuine emergency. But instead of motivating me to get going, it’s paralysing me with fear.

... for two weeks, anyway.

Drink. Drink drink drink drink drink.

The mental breakthroughs neccessary to write Essay 2 have been made.
Now it’s just a case of writing it. It will be a fiddly essay, as it draws on several texts – quoting and referencing (my least favourite things) will be a right pain – but I think I can do this.

... success swims tantalisingly back into view…

I also have a ridiculous amount of reading to do this week (it was supposedly Reading Week this week, except I was too busy writing and re-reading past texts to do any new reading!). Essays come first, but I don’t want to fall behind…

Essay 1 finished. I need to edit, format, and add a bibliography, but the brain straining part is over.

Essay 2 can wait till morning.

Essay 3 I’m not even thinking about yet! Lalalalala.

An essay plan has appeared, and the quotes are colouring in the outline (I’m re-doing the reading – amazing how much easier things are when you work from the text rather than from memory and hearsay with broad strokes of make believe!). Doubt it will be done tonight though, as there is an empty buzzing in my head where my attention span should be. I don’t know how to go about improving this. I’m now starting to worry that this essay – which counts for 25% of module mark, and if it doesn’t get a good enough mark I can submit a third essay instead – is cutting into the time and effort I should be spending on the essay that’s worth 50% of my other module, with no chance for re-assessment.
It’s been such a long time since I’ve performed at my very best. I wish I could re-capture it, but I don’t remember exactly how it went wrong (many bad memories, but nothing conclusive), so I don’t really know how to go about putting it right.

I am absolutely paralysed by the idea of failure, but the more paralysed I am, the less I do, the more failure becomes inevitable…