Last night I had another nightmare that I was trapped in my hometown. I was heavily sedated and wasn’t able to say what I needed to say to my family members. The city was different and in the dream I was trying to find a way out. Living where I do now didn’t exist in my dream. I am always grateful to wake up and know that I have put that awful place behind me. So many horrible things happened to me there and I am not ready to go back any time soon. 4 days ago

I’ve been writing entries when I wake up and it is always interesting to go back and review them. For my dream journal, I always keep the entries short. I have a small-sized book and I never write more than one little page. It makes it easier to review entries later. 2 weeks ago

I was in the room with either my brother or friends, there were some people at the door so we suggest we close the door and the guests stay in the living room.
I was going to city with my manager and one more colleague and I feel isn’t it awkward to go back alone with my manager as we will drop the other colleague. We came to a shopping centre, it was rather small. I got upstairs, there were people younger than me. I saw a little guy wandering, I start talking with him then we go to the computer and fill some forms or check something, in a short while I realized a bunch of people waiting in the line to use computer. I log off and made sure I do not leave my user name and password open. In a room, there were christmas equipment that the members of a foundation prepared for something special.
Somewhere in my dream I think there was also him which I enjoy his presence :) 1 month ago

I was in Izmir, said bye to my parents and went to a small town in the area. The room I stayed was old and not very comfortable. It was kind of a village that tourists come to visit. I get on a boat, and watched the sea while holding the metals on the edge. 1 month ago

I’m in an elevator at work, trying to get to the 6th floor. The elevator never stops on the 6th floor, but seems to stop on every other floor, letting ppl on & off. I never knew the bldg where I work had so many floors. Many times the elevator opens to ornate vintage-style offices with women in blouses & skirts, & men in suits. I am wearing baggy skinny cords, a sweatshirt cardigan, & fleece-lined flats. By the time I realize I should just get off on a floor near the 6th floor & take the stairs, the elevator doesn’t stop anymore at all, but just travels up & down willy-nilly. The dream dictionary says I’m feeling stuck in life, but I could have told it that. 1 month ago

I had a terrifying dream last night, it started when I decided to go home to visit (which I haven’t done in years). In my dream I rented a car and drove home and for some reason ended up having to stay in this hotel that was run by gangsters and was really shady and run down. So they take my car and I am in my room and I have to leave my room but for some reason everything I own gets left in the room including the key to the room.

When I try to go back to get my things they won’t let me in my room since I don’t have my key. A friend of mine and I somehow get the key and the three of us run up six flights of stairs and each floor we get to is even more run down. The wallpaper is torn off, stains all over the place, carpet ripped up and holes punched in the walls.

I hear machine guns and guys laughing so we are really scared, we get to the room and after a few minutes inside I hear a ticking noise and there is a bomb in a backpack on my floor. I try to toss it out the window and then the buzzer of my apartment went off – (in real life). I thought my heart was going to pound out of my chest. 2 months ago

Dream: “J” was upset with me for some unknown reason, and made our relationship public knowledge…out of spite. I was worried about “B’s” reaction, but he wasn’t upset. I was walking down a snowy path, trying to get to “J” and talk. It was actually supposed to be the street I used to live on, but it was very narrow and the houses along it were close together…and in the woods. Everything along the “path” was very still and quiet. It was like being in a ghost town. I got freaked out and turned back towards home.
Later…It was summer and I set up shop in an old, neglected building. My area of it was a mixture of a workshop and a boutique. It was very cluttered. I was walking through my “shop” and came to another room, which was barren…a hallway, and then another barren room. I liked the idea of expanding my shop – having the boutique in one area, and a workshop in one of the barren rooms. “B” was outside in the parking lot. He arrived in a white truck, similar to his old one, but flashier. Then he left….and returned driving a huge RV. “D” was with him, and had a motorcycle. I was surprised to see “D”, considering that him and “B” were in a huge fight over the summer and haven’t spoken since.
The last thing I remember was bitching to B about my lack of success and saying something to the effect of “If Daddy dearest were financing me the way he finances my sister, I could be successful too…” (sibling envy/rivalry)
Interpretation: Fears of certain people finding out about my time with “J”. Also, it’s been a month since we hung out, and even though the relationship can never “go anywhere”, I don’t want it to end. I miss him, and enjoy his company every so often. I’m unsure why it is we haven’t seen each other….is it because he doesn’t care – or does he care too much? And knowing that nothing will ever come of it, he’s avoiding me? Snow can represent neglect, as can the “ghost town”. I guess I feel abandoned/neglected.
Part 2 relates to mostly to my desires for success, and “blocks”. Cluttered work space (having boutique and workshop in same area) speaks to the overwhelm that I feel in daily life. I guess it feels like I have too many responsibilities to adequately take care of ANY of them. If I could free up space (both literally and figuratively), I might have a fighting chance.
B’s truck signifies hard work, the RV is symbolic of a fresh start. Both vehicles were white, also signaling a fresh start is required. The motorcycle, and D represent freedom and adventure. Because these items (and person) are associated with B, it might mean that we both need to “move on” in some way. Either move onto a new phase together, or separately. It’s a little unclear considering that we got along exceptionally well throughout the dream. 3 months ago

I was at a gas station, and a bunch of my personal belongings were in a pile in the corner of the parking lot. I was arguing with my mother….she wanted to leave me at my Grandmother’s house overnight because for some reason it would inconvieniance her to bring me home. I think she was going out of town for the night. I was desperate to get home and argued with her about my car (which she was driving). We agreed that I would go home and pick up my sister from my Grandma’s house in the morning. So I was gathering up my stuff….which was next to my car…..when my mother drove it and parked further away. This annoyed me because there was absolutely no reason to move the car, and my stuff was getting soaked by the rain. After getting my stuff together. I started pumping gas…into a gas can. I have no idea what for, and I had no idea in the dream either. I went from one pump to another, and gas was spewing everywhere.

Interpretation: Gas/gas stations represent energy. I think that my dream means that I have a desperate need for it. I have the access…but I use this energy in an unconstructive, wasteful manner
That my mother wanted to leave me stranded somewhere I didn’t want to be for the night might represent the abandonment and loneliness I feel from my most recent relationship. That I argued with her, represents my resistance to being left behind.
My possessions being rained on may be symbolic of my feelings that I am not valued, and the things important to me aren’t valued. My mother moving the car, I think can be correlated to my most recent relationship in that by moving the car my mother displayed a lack of concern over my belongings….and in my relationship it seems like there’s a lack of concern for my feelings and what matters to me. 4 months ago

Dreamed a friend had a hair removal device, and let me borrow it. I was removing all body hair including “peach fuzz”
Interpretation: Overly concerned with looks / sex appeal. Perhaps trying too hard to impress others 4 months ago

My sister had a kangaroo pouch! Really really weird. She stole something from me and put it in her pouch, and wouldn’t give it back. I was chasing her, and tackled her in an attempt to retrieve my stolen item (Don’t remember what it was). At that moment, my sister came and woke me up for Christmas morning festivities!
Note* Throughout the day, kangaroos were mentioned 2 times by people who had no idea about the dream! That was kinda strange….


Interpretation: The only thing I can come up with is that my sister’s “pouch” symbolizes the fact that she just had a baby. I love my sister,and love my nephew….but perhaps I have subconscious jealousy. Afterall, I was with B for 8 years when I left—and part of the reason I left was due to wanting the stability within the relationship to start a family. My sister barely knew her BF a couple months before she got knocked up. Maybe I feel as though “it shoulda been me” to have a baby.
Consciously, I know better. There are too many things I NEED to do before I’ll be ready. But subconsciously, maybe I feel as though someone (not necessarily my sister) has “stolen” part of the equation?

On a somewhat related note, B stayed over the other night, and yesterday morning when we woke up he told me, “I had a terrible dream—you were pregnant and wouldn’t tell me if it was mine or not”.... 4 months ago

B and I were in his truck driving up his driveway. He jumped out, and it moved in reverse on its own. It was going too fast for me to stop it. Initially I was in the passenger seat, but then somehow was in the backseat. It was night time. This is all I really remember…

Interpretation: Driving at night = unsure of where you’re headed in life.
To be a passenger = Represents your dependence on the driver. Not in control of own life. You are following the goals of other people rather than your own goals. To try to control car from passenger seat = trying to regain control of your life.
Driving in reverse= major setbacks concerning goals.


Last night before bed, I was contemplating, “Do I really want to get back together with B?” I left because of serious problems within our relationship. I was very unhappy, and though I made him aware of this, telling him accomplished nothing. I had hoped me leaving would change things for the better…but I’m still emotionally attached to him, and instead of him changing to be with me, I’ve felt the need to change myself in order to convince HIM to change! Kinda messed up. On the one hand, it has motivated me to become my idealized self….on the other, it has undermined my self esteem. I’ve grown overly dependent on his opinions to “mark” progress in my life. Often I feel that what I accomplish is to gain his approval, rather than just doing things for myself.
Anyway, I’ve been seriously questioning whether or not he’s really the man for me. If I were to “win” him back…if he were to change enough of the stuff that bothered me (the big issues like abuse and infidelity) would I truly be happy being with him….or do I just want to hold on because I’m terrified by the prospect of change? 4 months ago

I cleaned up my nightstand and have my dream journal sitting there with a pen. I wrote down a dream this morning when I woke up, which I hadn’t done in a while. 5 months ago

I have not been recording my dreams recently in my little dream journal. I had a dream this morning as I was waking up, but now I don’t remember it. Darn. I will put the journal right next to where I sleep with a pen and focus on writing in it when I wake up. 5 months ago

I am in a romantic relationship with my dept lead. The mood of this dream is somewhat somber because she is wrecking the relationship with her husband & I am wrecking the relationship with the boyfriend in order that we might be together. I felt amused by the dream when I first woke up & then until I got to work. After that I felt a little embarrassed. I didn’t tell my dept lead because that would be too weird & inappropriate, even for me. My dept lead is a heavy woman with a large chest & all day I found myself acutely aware of this fact, trying discreetly to back up from her so I wouldn’t accidentally touch her boob. Anyway, I will probably forget all about the dream by Monday. One of the benefits of a short attention span. 5 months ago