forgive those who hurt me

These past two weeks have been the hardest I’ve ever gone through and along the way I’ve made enemies with the people I are about most. They hurt me, they brought me down, and they broke me. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this low in my life before, but at the same time, on my way to a brand new high.

It took a lot of courage and inner strength for me to realize that if I didn’t forgive them, I would harp on this for months. I used all of my willpower to forgive the boy who hurt me, the friends who lied to me, and most of all, myself. I’ve learned that sometimes you have to get hurt in order to be a better person, and sometimes you need to break in order to be repaired.

I needed to be repaired, and that’s what the pain and breakage was for. All I had to do was forgive those who put me in that place, because everything happens for a reason, I guess I have to learn to get used to that.

Forgiving is letting go & i guess i’ve finally managed to forgive those because i’ve let go what has happened in the past. I know it’s something hard that most of us can’t do but sometimes it’s best for us.

I don’t forgive easily. Once someone has hurt me once I can’t trust them again. Even if I try to move on I just fall into this problem of wanting to let go and wanting to cling on.

This includes myself…