mrcreed He who desires, but acts not, breeds pestilence.
or....
5 months ago
just forget about what i think i cant have and concentrate on what i KNOW i can have…
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mrcreed He who desires, but acts not, breeds pestilence.
All I need is everything.
8 months ago
Slow down. Hold still.
It’s not as if it’s a matter of will.
Someone’s circling. Someone’s moving
a little lower than the angels.
And it’s got nothing to do with me.
The wind blows through the trees,
but if I look for it, it won’t come.
I tense up. My mind goes numb.
There’s nothing harder than learning how to receive.
Calm down. Be still.
We’ve got plenty of time to kill.
No hand writing on the wall:
just the voice that’s in us all.
And you’re whispering to me,
time to get up off my hands and knees,
‘cause if I beg for it, it won’t come.
I find nothing but table crumbs.
My hands are empty. God I’ve been naive.
All I need is everything.
Inside, outside, feel new skin.
All I need is everything.
Feel the slip and the grip of grace again.
Slow down. Hold still.
It’s not as if it’s a matter of will.
Someone’s circling. Someone’s moving
a little lower than the angels.
This voice calling me to you:
it’s just barely coming through.
Still, I clearly hear my name.
I’ve been fingering the flame
like tomorrow’s martyr.
It gets harder to believe.
All I need is everything.
Inside, outside, feel new skin.
All I need is everything.
Feel the slip and the grip of grace again.
So from now till kingdom come,
taste the words on the tip of my tongue.
‘Cause we can’t run truth out of town,
only force it underground.
The roots grow deeper
in ways we can’t conceive.
All I need is everything.
Inside, outside feel new skin.
All I need is everything.
Feel the slip and the grip of grace again.
All I need is all I need.
mrcreed He who desires, but acts not, breeds pestilence.
dont laugh but......the beginnings of my list
8 months ago
1. i want to sleep in the same place every night
2. i want to prepare my own meals,stop eating this crap that is going to be the death of me
3. i want to ride my bike everywhere i go,year round
4. i want to go to the gym every day and workout like i used to(i used to feel great most of the time)
mrcreed He who desires, but acts not, breeds pestilence.
what if
9 months ago
i really can have what it is i think i want?.....
Damn it.
12 months ago
The first step is convincing myself that I don’t want him anymore. It’s the “I can’t have him even if I want him” part that gets to me. I’m so freakin’ stubborn. Why can’t I just put the damn phone down? Why can’t I just take no for an answer? Why do I make so much progress in two weeks to have it all messed up in one night? Damn him.
mrcreed He who desires, but acts not, breeds pestilence.
and
17 months ago
i should add…”stop taking what i dont want”
I have to admit...
2 years ago
I may as well just fucking give this up because its almost as if I never had any intentions of ever, ever EVER in my mind, giving…Him…up. I never even once thought about it. Sure, I may need the reminder in general from time to time…but really, I know who and what this is about, and I’ve failed, completely. I dont want to stop wanting him. Its been a year or more now. And I’ve never done anything inappropriate, not one bit…but maybe I wish I could.
