doesn’t everyone look their best on their wedding day? i mean, of course it’s the professional hair and make up, the work out regimine you started the day after you got engaged, the way you watched what you ate, plus the extra 5 pounds you lost due to stress and excitment…..but it’s also because this is the time in your life when nothing can bring you down. no one can rain on your parade and that sincere happiness beams through your face, especially those moments leading up to the ceremony. and to think, that’s the moment when you are going to capture your face and body on film more than probably the rest of your life…..of course those pictures are going to be amazing. now, imagaine looking at them almost 2 years later, 20 pounds heavier, and not quite as blissfully happy with yourself and where your life is….it’s a little depressing. it’s not that i think getting back to my wedding weight will somehow take me back to that time. my life is moving forward and i’m ok with that. well one reason i feel i need to is my health. i don’t want to be 24 and have an extra 20 pounds on me. but it’s also because i look back at that time and realize, “hey, i wasn’t ever completely satisfied with how i looked. no one ever is…..but i was TRULY comfortable in my skin.” i mean look at my wedding dress! it’s body hugging satin with an open corsette in the back! if i was at all self concious it obviously didn’t stop me from picking that dress…..and it wasn’t one of those things where i tried it on, thought it looked good, and then when the pictures came in i was sorely mistaken…..it ACTUALLY fit me like a glove! i mean, i’m no gisele….. i can’t pull ANYTHING off, but for my body, it was perfect. i want, dare say, i need that confidence back. and i don’t believe it’s soley connected to my weight, but when i feel comfortable in my skin, i feel sexier and more care free, and that translates into my attitude with my husband, with the people around me and it’s infectious. i want to make my husband happy…..i want to be happy…..and though i don’t think it’s the ultimate cure, i also don’t believe that losing an extra 20 pounds would hurt that cause…...
