i know who I am, and I know what i want. I know this beyond all doubt. I know that I am not neccesarily the person I want to be, but i’m getting there. I know that the problem comes in as I try to show others who i am and what i want 5 years ago

I know what I want. I know it in my heart. But my inner bohemian and my conservative bourgoise are at war. And right now it is the freaking waterloo taking place. Problem is I am secretly hoping my inner bohemian is gonna crush the little bourgoise but unfortunately it looks grim. The little bourgoise is allied with so many people whom i respect and look up to and don’t wanna dissapoint. Right this second it is stalemate. I don’t know if I have the courage to give my inner bohemian some master plan of action so it can lie in ambush and defeat the bourgoise… but oh I love the bourgoise too…. What to do??? 6 years ago