be enlightened

I find this thing I wan’t to do perplexing because to be enlightened I know I’ve got to not want anything. What is enlightenment anyhow ? I know it only happens in the moment and maybe I’ve already had that moment. Maybe I can be enlightened more than once, it centainly feels that way sometimes…..hmmm

A long time ago I decided that I was no longer content to cling to the rocks. So I let go. And yes, I have been banged and beaten by the tides, but occasionally I rise to the top and I get to float down the river and enjoy the sun!

I am trying to practice being present and mindful, according to the Buddhist tradition. I also struggle with being kind in my words, non-judgemental and compassionate…. But this is what I am trying to do!

I’m exploring the aspects of awareness right now. There seem to be two fundamental states of awareness: that of the mind and that of the external environment. I’ve recently transitioned into a state of awareness of my mind. I could see clearly everything that I want and see that it was pulling me left and right. It was not very consistent though, and my state of mind is no longer so clear. I then experienced a subtle state of awareness of my external environment. This state was not as easy to harness. I don’t even know if it really was a state of awareness. That is how subtle it seemed. I may just be trying too hard…

On the other hand, that may just be the thing I need to focus on. Why am I trying so hard?

Can someone please show me the light?

Duh…not reaching enlightment…my mom’s full of books about positive thinking, I do believe most of the things they say,but I’m just too mental(but changing….)!

I love to study cultures and religions, love to experience everything!! Love reading Tao Te Ching and great books by great minds… immerse myself in those who know more than me…

Been to Thich Nhat Hahns Buddhist retreat in France… wonderful – I recommend it.

Been to a James Ray seminar – loved that too… practical spirituality for todays being

I’d love to feel at peace all day, all the time…

goals get me stressed… but I do center daily… I’ll get there.

xx

By reading the Vedas you can see through the eyes of knowledge and eternity…

Enlightenment. Nirvana. Samadhi. Something about these resonates with my soul.

The more I seek, the more I uncover. As long as I continue to explore, I will continue to learn. Enlightenment is an ongoing process.