learn to move on

It’s sad to see her go, after all the years I treated her like crap. I tried to reconcile but she started to treat me like dirt so it’s time to pack it in and move on….

This is apparently not an easy thing to do. And a funny thing too. I always thought moving on would be the easiest thing. The best thing. Someday, maybe it will be the best thing, but it will never be the easiest.

I don’t quite know how i am going to do it. Or even why i want to do it. Well i guess i know why, it is because i should get over him for my own mental health. But i love loving him, i love the way he makes me feel just everything about when we were together was great. But oh well he dumped me because he thought it would spare us pain that was inevitable. I think he is wrong but he is stubborn and his mind is set on his stupid idea. So right now i am confused i am not quite ready to get over him really i really don’t want to get over him.Even if i start now I probably will finally be over him in like 2020 if i am lucky. I just don’t like to see my life without him. It is so annoying why do they always love us to hurt us? I think i might just cry it seems to be the only thing i have done this week. Someone help me? please

thank you xx

I’m obsessing over him. I think about 24.7, and every little thing reminds me of him. Everyday I look on my caller ID, check my myspace or look around me in public places to see if he’s called or sent me a message or is somewhere around me. And everyday, I get disappointed. I really need to move on. Atleast I know this, right?