create something beautiful

Soliloquies;
virtuosity and decay
- libido then
and thanatos? -
shimmer.

^{Phonography. Fuck, yeah}

I think I have. I’ve spent 18 hours in headphones today and I find myself in possession of 90 seconds of something I like.

Now we wait for a little separation and the cold light of dawn…

I have a wall in my room that I have covered in pictures, post cards, posters, certificates, cards and stickers. To me – it is beautiful :). I think this goal is done and I feel fulfilled :).

I created a beautiful mess. It has all the makings of what seemed to be a glorious idea. One good intentioned table move always turns out to be some big ordeal – moving this to move that and moving some other stuff to the other room to make room for the move itself. Blek.

The table is moving into my studio so i have more room to work on. My clay table requires more and more tools to be at arms reach as i learn new tricks and techniques. =)

My original goal was to write every day. It used to be something i did without thinking about it. But as I’ve grown my creative interests have expanded. I enjoy some other crafty things now including working in polymer clay.

So i’ve decided to expand my goal and ‘create something beautiful’ more often.

So yesterday I created something beautiful. A rock wall for my mothers yard. It is indeed nice to look at and will last for years and years. Mom couldnt be happier and I have a goal on my list crossed off. :)

For years i have admired beautiful objects created by other people. I want to create this experience for myself by making something concrete i can display in my home.

I want to be able to look at the result of my journey every day. When i see my creation i want to feel pleased by my choices and fulfilled by my discoveries.

Well, since I am not creative and I like to joke that I am the best appreciater out there I figure it’s time for me to take this into my own hands. I am creative, some way, some how and I shall.

that i haven’t realised yet.
or that i have forgotten.
or i’m in denial of.
the good, the bad and the ugly.

coming soon

(Is that a cop out?)