bury my old self

why it is so hard to tell one’s feelings to the person you really loved most?

a vow that will make me turn around once more, and not to return again. this day will mark my heart to move forward without turning back; to bury my old life starts now, and let it be buried forever.

i always fear in procrastinating work; i can do so many things that can help and make my work done. but sometimes i’m tempted to delay things, even if i can do it already. for some reasons, i deliberately procrastinate just because i hate the person needing it. i’m almost over it, just a little more…

i’ve been so unconscious for the last years, and i wanted to become conscious on how i get along with my peer because sometimes i unintentionally hurt people. everyone makes mistakes and no one is perfect. one thing that can help me get through this: silence. i think ignorance is not the answer; that will just make me become stupid on what i’m doing.

my old self reveals itself again and again unintentionally, and eventually. i really hate my old self. i know that past is “past”, or past has passed, but i just want to be “me” and “also a getting better me”.