Keep him

I love him, he’s my everything haha. I love how he makes me laugh, keeps me smiling, and how he loves doing everything I do. I’m weird and hard to hang on to but he has a firm grasp on me. Except there’s alot of complications in our relationship. He’s 21 and I’m 17. He’s my ex’s best friend. So despite this he keeps me reassured that age doesn’t bother him and he’ll hide my ex’s body if he’s not ok with us. He’s teasing, but it’s cute. So Jack Jack please be mine for as long as you can

i love him. i want to keep him. its that simple ;)

Things are pretty rough right now, as I am heading an hour away to college in the fall and he may be going away for a month out of the two we have left. I know I may be a bit miserable with him gone, but a month isn’t the end of the world and an hour isn’t too long for frequent visits. We’ve been together almost a year now. I’ve never felt this strongly about anyone before, and I know it’s mutual. It seems so natural when we are together. I’m confident we’ll make it through.

it all just keeps getting better and better.

Well, he came over this weekend and ended up reading my entries on 43things [I told him it was fine]. I changed the pop rocks one because he made me realize that it was a bit “forward,” but other than that I think most of it just made him smile and that makes me happy. I was afraid that he wouldn’t like me after getting inside my head, but it turns out I had no need to be so crazy nervous.

Not to jinx it, but I am feeling good about everything.

Even if [god forbid] things don’t work out, I wouldn’t take back our time together for the world.

Last night he said something that made my day/week/month/year. In a nutshell, he said I help him trust others and become the person he wants to be… just like he helps me =].

I originally started this with a bunch of awkward metaphors, but soon found I was tangling further the mental knot I was trying to undo. [see?].

I don’t have it all figured out enough in my head yet to write down, but I can safely say I’ve never met anyone like him before.

In the time we’ve been together, he’s taught me a lot about myself. Not to be corny, but I’ve come to realize that I don’t need or want a knight in shining armor to sweep up my crumpled mess. I need to be strong – to stand on my own and make my own worth. I mean, if I was always being swept up, my only purpose would be to hurt his back.

He inspires me to be a better person. I just worry so much about what I can offer HIM. What could he possibly be learning from ME?
[He once said while complaining about his friends, “Friends are supposed to learn from one another.”]

Either way…I absolutely adore you. No, I love you. Very much. I hope we make each other smile for a long time to come.