stop crying over him

Its like I have no more emotion for him. But I do. I can sit here for an hour or more and think of all of the negative and bad thoughts and hurtful things he has done to me.

But in the end it doesnt matter, because I still want him in my life.

We have already created all this life together, future together. I can not let that go. No matter how bad I am being treated.

It scares me to think that I should leave him, that Ill find someone who wants me, who has morals like I do, who wants a similar life that I want, who can Love me the way I Love him. I cant find anyone else, I dont want to wait for someone worthwhile to walk into my life, I want Him, Him, the guy I should stop crying over.

I unplugged my phone and turned off the cell. Not that it matters, there will be no messages from him. I let 2 days pass by without me calling him, and I call him all the time. I just have to stop that. I want to change my number, block his numbers so he can have a reason as to not calling me. Not that he’ll care.

Shit Imsosick

Guess what?
You do not deserve anything from me. You don’t deserve my love, my tears; you do not deserve a place in my life. You don’t deserve to be in my dreams or thoughts, but for some reason, I can’t drive you out of them. You’re finding ways to torture me, and I can’t even fight them because I’m asleep. I can’t believe I ever trusted you. I should have known you would go and break my heart. It kind of sucks, though. Out of all of your girlfriends, I’m the only one that you have ever ended it with. The other girls always broke up with you. It makes me wonder…what was it about me that gave you newfound strength to end a relationship? Especially one of 15 months. You screwed me up in so many ways, I’ll never trust another guy like I trusted you. Thank you for ruining my life, you’ll never understand to what extent you’ve destroyed me. I don’t wish you well. And mark my words, I will find someone who treated me better than you ever did.

we were together for two years and a half and then he says he doesn’t love me anymore i dont understand how can you tell someone that after so long within an instant. I cry everyday everynight. I dont think he cares how much I love him and how much effort i put into the relationship. Thenn all of a sudden he calls me 20 times in the night saying he does love me and then three days later sayng he doesnt. I am so confused and fed up i need to STOP crying over him and get on with my life. easy to say hard to accomplish.

we have been through so much together and now, he is over me, he loves my friend, i know i should hate him but here is something that i love about him, he drives me crazy, and i just cant so crying over him. i think i still love him but i missed my chance to show how much i truely care about him, i just keep crying when im alone about him, thinking about him… <\3

Yesterday I saw pictures of him and his new girlfriend… he was wearing the tie I bought him for my senior prom that he didn’t even want when I got it and The Door’s “Hello I Love You” T-shirt I bought him in NYC that went along with the note I wrote him to tell him I loved him the first time. I know they are just clothes but it hurt, and I let him get the best of me because there is nothing else that I do well.

After two years he dumped me on Christmas Eve because he just didn’t love me anymore. Three months later and he has already replaced me with two different girls. Every time I think about these things and realize how little I meant to him I just break into tears.

Everyone tells you that time heals. As cliche as that statement is they couldn’t be more accurate. I was trying so hard to forget, but it was better for me to just accept that it was over. I don’t think if you truely love someone that you just magically stop…I will always love him, but I don’t need him and he won’t be the last person I love. I have done all the crying that was necessary and now it is time to move forward…I’m even smiling!

we had a long distance relationship, but we were crazy about each other, i am still inlove with him and i dont know what do to, hes the first thing i think about when i wake up and the last when i fall asleep, i cant get over it, we broke up because he was ignoring me due to his med school apps but we go to different colleges and i got upset because he wouldnt see me on thanksgiving and he wouldnt call me often and i regret getting mad and i told him how i felt countless times online through email and letters bue he said he was busy but we had been together for a year and 2 months. i made so many sacrafices like changing my cell phone plan for one month before the break up and i just want him to hug me :( i havent seen him for 3 months because of the distance and we broke up over the phone. i feel like were starcrossed lovers he said we should move on but i cant seem to do that, im inlove with him and i am tortuchering myself i want to be normal and breate for once i dont knwo if i need closure or what that even means, hes my first love and i know i should be grateful that he came into my life and just embrace this experiences but i cant seem to let him go, he was that person that understood me, my bestfriend, i feel lost. i tried to just separate myself but now that its xmas break i have so much time to think i want to be normal so bad. i even started fasting i dont know what i am doing to myself or if i should let him know. i miss everything :( and i cant stop crying i can sit in one place and just cry, everything reminds me of him and the city i live in reminds me of him because it is tainted some how a park cant seem to be a park, a place cant just be a rush of emotions just fills me up, i know i am crazy i know.

they take your heart then make it feel better and then when you least expect it they step all over it and break it. just sneak up on you and crush you. what do i do now =[
damn kitty how could you break your cupcake?

but u can only stop when u have cry alot and see that its just time to let go