not be shy

im painfully shy and it ruins my life everyday

This is definatly coming along smooth. I entered the MKV pageant to boost my confidence in little things like relating to people I don’t know and came out fabolous. :) I enjoy meeting new people and wasn’t afraid to start talking with that certian someone :) .. I love the new me… It’s amazing. and stella and every other great word out there. :P:)

Linda The Sales Trainer (from here on referred to as LTST) has been chipping away at my low self esteem and passive demeanor by telling me kind things like, “It just wasn’t a memorable experience when I first met you,” and “You need to come across more competent,” and my favorite, “You need to wear a navy blue skirt with a nice little cream blouse and a jacket. People want to buy from people who dress better than them.”

She has now suggested hypnosis and I fear that she will replace whatever shred of happiness remains in the far corner of my brain with some ridiculous sales tactic like, “Keep your face like that. No, don’t smile. Just look this way. Like how I am.”

I want to run far away and make sidewalk art and sell hamburgers on a beach before I turn into some sort of twisted sales experiment and I’m left without spirit or individuality, carrying out my days like a zombie programmed only to hustle people into buying pocket folders.

Help.

being more open

I don’t think most people know that I’m shy. This means, either I’ve gotten closer to overcoming it or I’ve gotten better at hiding it. I fear the latter but it could be a little of both.

My coworkers call me “sassy” and “mouthy” (they are, too, and that’s why I like them). I believe this is a rare side that is only seen when I’m totally comfortable with people – and that usually does not happen immediately. In unfamiliar situations, internally, I’m still fighting off a sense of fear that keeps me from doing/saying things that I’d like. Basically, my point is, someone, somewhere would suggest that I take medication.

I think what helps me more is realizing that everything is really insignificant, or at least, not as significant as I make it. So not caring about anything is good, for me, anyway.

I think I can safely say that I can check this off my list. Since I added this goal to not be shy to my list, I have made some changes in the way I act and do things. I finally got the courage to asked the guy I liked what he thought of me, im not afraid to talk to people I dont usually talk to, Introductions arent as weird anymore and Im singing in a band (its a church band, but whatev. its a start =)). I hope when people think of me now, they wont just think of me as “Chelsey the timid one”. But more “Chelsey the friendly and outgoing one” . :)

so…FUCK YOU All mada fuckers…
just an example of getting out of your shell

the best advice to stop being a pussy, is just to go up to the first fine girl u see, whip out ur 2 inch special, and see where it goes from there

once you stop caring so much about what people think, it gets a whole lot easier.

you’ll always be a little shy, but it will feel comfortable in a way, other than entirely unbearable.
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