Forgive my dad and trust my mom

today i received an email from my dad, which isn’t too uncommon; except for its content. it said that no matter what i did that he would never love me any less. i do not know what sparked him to make the comment but it was nonetheless reassuring. a few hours later, i ran into him at the gym. i walked into the dance studio where he was practicing and he looked and me, hugged me, and started weeping. i consoled him trying to figure out what was wrong and he just looked me in the eyes and told me that one day i would understand. i’ve never seen my dad cry without me shedding a few tears myself. i felt so much love coming from him today and wish so much that it made up for all the years i resented him. maybe, someday, i will understand.

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It’s an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It’s a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing. Richard Bullock

This quote could really be an entry for anything. I found it posted in as a part of a fellow blogger’s entry as she described how she accomplished not believing in the word impossible. it is utterly inspiring and can apply to all goals as all goals should be achievable, not impossible.

is always a scary thing. im quite excited to see my mom, but scared of what i will see. i need to have faith in her, but this whole ‘building trust’ thing is quite hard to accomplish

I need to let go of the fact that although my dad left my family, it was the right thing for him to do. There is no sense in blaming him anymore, but I can’t help it. I need to trust my mom to be an independent person, but the truth is, I can’t help checking her laundry basket for hidden bottles of alcohol. She says she’s fine, but she always says that.