Welcome LOVE to enter my life and stay forever

Yesterday D. and I had a conversation in which he opened his heart and shared somethings with me. I was surprised that he opened up so much. Today we spoke quickly and I thanked him for sharing those things with me. His response was “when two people are in love they share those things”.

Wrote him an email, deleted it. Picked up the phone, put it back down without calling him.

Not sure why he’s been on my mind so much lately. I guess as I keep making the effort to move foward…meeting the universe halfway as it were…I keep having to stop myself from looking backward.

I know what I want and I want it all. And every time I start wishing that things could be the way that they were, I remind myself of all the amazing things that have happened since, and that are waiting to happen now that my heart is open and true.

I really do feel like I’ve done everything that I can do. I’ve taken action where I could, and let go of what I need to let go of. And, I think most importantly of all, I’m so, so excited about falling in love and getting everything that I’ve ever wanted and more…

We went to a family gathering because Aaron’s grandma passed. We picked up his sister and a niece and nephew. They had a fish fry and loads of other food. I enjoyed the company of his family as we talked, laughed and shared. Aaron brought his massage chair in order to help his family relax. He’s great at doing what he’s best at for the benefit of others. Although there was a physical loss, I didn’t feel a wave of sadness there. Just a sense of reality and being present, awareness of the people who were physically there and a caring and nurturing energy in the house~

is one of the hardest thing that I have ever tried to do. Even above being a single parent. I guess I am just having a hard day with being so far apart from each other. The courage isn’t feeling strong today. :(

I need time for my heart to heal from this one…
Update – boy did that last long…...... :/

Afterward, we walked around Somerset Mall. Let’s go into Tiffany’s and look at wedding bands he said. We walked in and he had me sized. They had a ring I wanted a couple of years ago that I didn’t see… Wow! I was sized for a ring today!

The stones were unbelievable, yet I’d like something a little more unique. Is this real?

“How do you feel about us?” he asked.

“I love the time we spend together (practically everyday),” I told him.

“Well what do you think about marriage? Is it a possibility for us?” he asked.

Marriage is a possibility, let’s really spend some time thinking and talking about this ;)

I really enjoyed the company of my Mom’s side of the family this weekend. We were able to express both sadness and joy, laughter and fun! Seeing the kids play and interact well was good. Listening to the wisdom of the older generation was great! The food was fantastic and the time spent was priceless. I let my aunts know my home is open for future gatherings~

I listened to Beyonce and Stevie Wonder sing “So Amazing”...at least I think that’s what it’s called, by Luther Vandross. It is a beautiful song. I’m in a great mood~

I realize that whatever love I receive is a blessing. I am better off focusing on and being grateful for the love I share, receive and give…my life is better for it~