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heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
Of something I will always need…...to remind myself….on my computers hard drive is real enough I think….....
God, voice mail is a wonderful thing….so revealing at times….don’t you think?......
heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
But it could be an illusion that has the appearance of reality….Or a stark reality that is a dreamy and inticing illusion….I really can’t wait to get 5 to 1 on a sure bet…...
heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
is what the week of January 27 to February 4 was….my….
heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
and open communication is as real as you can get….....I am fortunate to have that…...totally open discussion…..about everything…I don’t think I have ever had anything approaching this….I like it….the bases have been covered….the groundwork laid…Everything should be like this…....
heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
What is real is what happens to you every day…..for good or bad….your routine…..job….interactions with the public….the way you intertwine with them….interpersonal relationships….But many of us want more….so much more.....but don’t know how to really find it….so...what I have done this year….is decide a change was needed….that’s a big step….hard….and then proceed slowly….true to your hopes and beliefs….and do the things you like…but be open to possibilities….and if you are lucky, maybe something you never expected will appear before you…and unfold slowly….beautifully…..right before your eyes…..like a time lapse film of a rare orchid blooming…....and the wonder of it will make you believe…....in reality…....
heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
In a world upside down with the BS of it’s not my fault…..blahblahblah…....I vow to take responsibility for my actions…...both the good…..and the incredibly stupid and childish…...And make it better…..I promise…......
heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
Here’s another clue…......about realness….....and illusion….....you have to think though….....ready…....here ya go….........
heaveemetal I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me
is extremely…...amazingly powerful…...it requires some work and effort…......but is ultimately….....so rewarding…....touching….......beautiful




