have the wisdom to determine the difference between what is **REAL** and **ILLUSION**

Will I ever manage this?

This was silly…..I have always known the difference.

Of something I will always need…...to remind myself….on my computers hard drive is real enough I think….....

God, voice mail is a wonderful thing….so revealing at times….don’t you think?......

But it could be an illusion that has the appearance of reality….Or a stark reality that is a dreamy and inticing illusion….I really can’t wait to get 5 to 1 on a sure bet…...

is what the week of January 27 to February 4 was….my….

and open communication is as real as you can get….....I am fortunate to have that…...totally open discussion…..about everything…I don’t think I have ever had anything approaching this….I like it….the bases have been covered….the groundwork laid…Everything should be like this…....

What is real is what happens to you every day…..for good or bad….your routine…..job….interactions with the public….the way you intertwine with them….interpersonal relationships….But many of us want more….so much more.....but don’t know how to really find it….so...what I have done this year….is decide a change was needed….that’s a big step….hard….and then proceed slowly….true to your hopes and beliefs….and do the things you like…but be open to possibilities….and if you are lucky, maybe something you never expected will appear before you…and unfold slowly….beautifully…..right before your eyes…..like a time lapse film of a rare orchid blooming…....and the wonder of it will make you believe…....in reality…....

In a world upside down with the BS of it’s not my fault…..blahblahblah…....I vow to take responsibility for my actions…...both the good…..and the incredibly stupid and childish…...And make it better…..I promise…......

Here’s another clue…......about realness….....and illusion….....you have to think though….....ready…....here ya go….........

is extremely…...amazingly powerful…...it requires some work and effort…......but is ultimately….....so rewarding…....touching….......beautiful