achieve inner peace

Much like everyone else, I live a life where silence and stillness is a rare and precious commadity. Because I lack this I have developed an illness and am struggling daily with trying to overcome it. Although the illness is not contagious, many people suffer from the very thing that causes it, STRESS!
I have lived a very hard life and have struggled to achieve my life goals. I have successfully bought a home, achieved my bachelors and raised two beautiful kids on my own. Now I am at a point in my life where I would like to accomplish some inner peace. Sure I go for walks and give my thanks for my blessings but I still feel incomplete.
I have realized that what I seek and lack is what is most important…INNER PEACE. I never really focused on myself, rather I have simply focused on making sure everyone around me is happy.
I understand that achieving inner peace requires discipline. That would be my first step. Financial security, although essential does not make me happy. I have just recently returned to school to achieve my Masters in Education which is a change from what I currently do, Casework.
For my health and my future I am going to do everything I can think of to learn to discipline myself and focus on me for a change. I am realizing that it is essential to my future to seek my Nirvana.

Not long ago I found the following possibly in an unsolicited email or maybe just surfing around the ‘net, but it makes much sense.

Some signs and symptoms of inner peace:
A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than on fears based on past experiences.
An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
A loss of interest in judging other people.
A loss of interest in judging self.
A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
A loss of interest in conflict.
A loss of the ability to worry (this is a very serious symptom)
Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature.
Frequent attacks of smiling.
An increased tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.
An increased susceptibility to the love extended by others as well as the uncontrollable urge to extend it

If this is what inner peace is all about, it certainly seems worth working towards!

Everytime I saw people, any people, I became extremely stressed out and terrified. I spent a whole year hating life because I lived in fear of people (I was abused by peers and some teachers as a child). But now, I have achieved inner peace, because Christ has calmed my terrified spirit, and showed me that no matter what people may ever do, life must go on, and I must learn to feel confident in myself, because Christ loves me. If Christ loves me, then I’m special. If I’m special, then who were they to say they owned me and I was lower than them? So this means that if anyone is unkind to me, that it doesn’t mean I’m to blame (my tendency to blame myself is what caused my social anxiety. I was afraid my very existance drew unkind people to hurt me), but that they’re wrong, and what those cruel kids did was NOT my fault and was NOT something I deserved. Now, I’m self confident, people don’t sense fear in me and become unkind, but rather admire my transformation, and show me respect when they realize I show I don’t need nor care about their approval, and I have many friends. I’m whole in Christ, and filled with His peace that casts out all my fears.

I’ve always had low confidence, and often doubt myself. Being insecure & a full-time pessimist had always been a trouble to my life & lovelife.

One day I kinda made my gf mad because of all my insecurities(I always frustrate Her in that way). And yeah, I felt really terrible, I tried to change my pessimistic views but my attempts were just futile. I felt miserable & helpless. As if there’s some never settled chaos trampling about inside myself.

So I went online and searched on Google for “Inner Peace”, thinking that I should really clean out my emotional mess. I then came across this article regarding Inner Peace. I was somehow enlightened. Yet, I’m still unsure of how to really achieve it, or what it really means.

Of course, it’s a hard task. I’m setting my first step by trying to meditate every now & then, trying to explore within my own thoughts & feelings. I hope I can achieve this goal. It’ll be quite a challenge.

So i went to a company meeting last Friday and they had this speaker. I assumed he was going to be boring but his message was eye-opening. His message was about control. He said that the key to true success and inner peace is to let go of all the things you can’t control. So for example, if someone finds themselves single, that person needs to know that they can’t control anything external about the situation (when that special someone will come into his/her life, who that special person will be, etc) and focus on the internal (do you reflect the qualities of the special person you want to find? Are you having fun while single or just moping around?) I think that one of keys to achieving inner peace is to let go of all the external factors we can’t control. I’m going to practice doing this and get back to you!

this is now tied into my goal of not regreting anything and to stop procrastinating. im almost there. i just need to get stuff done wen it need to be done, so it will stop eating up at me. and thats when i will be peaceful. i will achieve it.

yeah, so i thought that getting in touch with my emotions would help, and maybe it is, but its so awkward in a bad way, like a rollercoaster ride while bad trippin’ on acid. i guess the pulling off of the band-aid has some hairs caught in it.