Live the life I want to live

live a life, it means this is the life I want to live.

Nobody tells me to live the life I live. My life is my choice.

If I am not happy with the life I live, it’s entirely my responsibility and I can always change it. If I don’t, it means I am an impudent masochist, since I want to live a life I don’t like. So simple… ;)

• get my own house and make it my place
• play my guitar and sing every day
• get the new piano and play it
• get the recording facilities and record myself
• produce music
• live internationally
• travel
• expand
• grow
• love
• breathe
• be brave
• do scary inner works
• write and compose
• bounce of joy
• go to concerts
• be true
• be around very funny people
• have fun
• ...

then I will not have to work at all

Relaxation is an art that has been made very difficult to practice by the conditions of modern civilization…

It’s indeed difficult to “sacrify” an hour or so when you’re being chased by deadlines of various types. But it’s worth doing! when relaxed, I am more efficient, more creative, more happy.

A job I love, a nice car, a house, positive and committed friends, with my man as my fiance then husband, a lot of money, calm and peaceful, happy, content, etc.

don’t let them use you!

I’m impressed by myself.

_{In brief:}

I have the feeling that I create my life. I openly deny who I am not and convince who I am. I rebel and explore. I try and make conscious choices. I (re)discover my humanity.

While doing this, I experience a wide range of feelings – from anger through excitement to _{watch out} fulfilment. Life is no longer that boring when I start to question what disturbs me.

It’s so new and thrilling that I forget the fear. Well, I am inclined to say I start to love what scares me. It gives me the sense of walking through my life, as opposed to being dragged by it.

I say to myself now: please dear, keep it up!

by answering the question:

If tomorrow, would you die happy man?

_{for no obvious reason}

When will I let go of all the pain
_{that I sweep under the rug still}

Why do I hold digging out what hurts me against those who discover it?
_{they really want to help}

otherwise you’ll feel cramped. Lifelong.