learn to control my emotions

last year i surprised myself by constantly breaking out crying uncontrollably in my last period of the day at school. i guess with stress at the core of it all, things like intense boyfriend troubles, hateful class debates on same-sex marriage, and watching my 16 year old cat die a bloody, painful death, just made me break down. This year I promised to get a hold of myself, but with my parents just announcing divorce it doesn’t seem too realistic of a goal. I guess I’m just tired of making a fool of myself.

i have ruined my relationship because i cant control my emotions

i tend to be an emotional person and i think a lot of situations would have ended much better in the past if i would have took time out to think before i acted out on what i felt. i still struggle with this alot and its something that im working on on a daily basis.

I don’t want myself to be an overly emotional person, want to be little practical and logical for my own good.

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I’m pretty sure this issue has been the down fall of most things in my life. I’m cyclo-manic so it’s a bit more difficult for me. I’m on medication but that only serves to mellow you out. You still get regular human emotions that you don’t know how to handle meaning that they get out of control and become just like the needless emotions you get when you aren’t on medication. I want to stop over reacting. I don’t realize what I’ve done until it’s done…

You should never ignore your emotions, instead, meditate and/or reflect on the cause. If you can find the cause, then just think ‘how can I change this to suit me?’ It takes practice, but over time it gets easier and easier. Using both works better because reflection helps resolve the problem, whereas meditation teaches detachment, which makes it so the emotions don’t rule your actions/thoughts. The combination is truly astonishing if your drive for accomplishment is sincere.

ok i get insanely hyper one second and calm and quiet a second later….i need help. and when i’m hyper it’s like a 4 year-old on 80 chocolate bars, 30 bags of high sugar candy, and 1 1/2 cups of mental problem. i really don’t like being hyper and it makes me look really stupid some? no all the time! so starting now i really need to cool down… maybe i’ll start meditating or something like that to calm me down.

its a work in progress but a huge improvement on how it was BUT i never ignore my emotions either.

I’m like a goddamned roller coaster ride. Even on my medication, I’m up, I’m down, I’m in the goddamned middle. Perhaps next Thursday, I’ll have them up my dosage to 20mg.
Because I’m a fucking wreck right now.