act

right now i am a bit on the words, my actions, communication, i made it stop and i dont think its right. as a child my parents would guide me through life. they told me how to acheive ad taught me a few trades. I am willig to do more than most and i own that to my parents. if you werent in football, you would work. If you werent in football the you would act and be gay. that is the way my family thought, even through all those years that they made me hate both sexes. all i want now is to be away from them because of the loss of love, sympathy, compassion, anymosity, happiness, enjoyment, caring, nurtering, understanding, protection that a family can give.

this is one i could do. I wanted to act when i was young, it was to make up for the loss of my parents attention. i liked it and was quite often the main character of plays and activities with my friends.

i was into sports but life bacame a destination and not a journey for me. when i was 15 would try and try to be cute. get drunk and show off my body. trying every which way to get rid of the hair on my body.

i dont know who i was acting like but i know i always hated my body. maybe my family didnt care or took joy in my torment. I dont know, the people i wanted to be are there and i am here.

sometimes i feel like i can relate to alot of people. I know family is important and kids need real people but sometimes i dont know if blood is real. I am made of bone and flesh. sometimes i dont know how to talk because of events that are going on in my life. When i was younger i would get angry. I thought i had a 100 years to accomplish everything and didnt think people would rise above me. but they did and i have fallen behind. sometimes i wonder what sign language is for.

I wanted to be something and couldn’t do it. when i was a child i would take up acting beause i thought i would never rise above anyone in sports. Aloat of people thought i was gay and that my shyness contributed to them being outed. I never had alot and did never have the right clothes or carry myself the right way. none the less i tryed so hard to keep up a family value and act like a kid at all the perfect times. I never was sure if anyone related to me and if they like what i did. in this way ating came natural.

Now that i have learned that success is in the eyes of the beholder, i have realized that i must choose an outcome of a future perfect picture of life.

THIS THE ONLY REASON WHY IM TRYING TO HAVE WEBSHOW BECAUSE THAT STARTS YOU OFF WITH ACTING SOO THAT’S WHY???!

background
acting day
tomorrow

just sayin’

i am
a motel patron

i can totally
channel that

I decided to apply for the theatre universities in my country to really realize my urge and passion for acting.

I’m gonna make it happen!

Finally I realized it is myself who is holding me back no-one else. Im gonna work hard and love the work!

Does Anyone know any good monologues I can practice????
please&Thankyou =]

....day on the set
and very interesting;
i so played the part
of a bar patron
(albeit a background one)
tosses hair

for the TV show tomorrow.
have a call time and all.
show biz

Actually, don’t ask me where that came from. I was just listening to Mayer Hawthorne so who knows. I just want to act or do something creative with my life, I’ve realised, this is what I am meant to do.