finish school

I need to finish my Wiki project, and the PTSD paper for the lab.

Then after those are out of the way I need to study for biopsychology because I got the test moved to next Wednesday. Gosh. That is going to be hard but maybe if I can keep in mind that it’s just a test I will be over to get through it most effectively. Like any other test, if you study hard enough you can get it.

And lastly, both my English classes require a little attention.

I really need to remember what I want. I can’t let myself slip this late in the game, for any reason.

ok so, i’m a senior technically, but i have NO major.

this is because, i didn’t really know which path i wanted to take as a ‘career’. i discovered myself during college, therefore there was a bunch of confusion as to where i should go !

i went from a 3 yr nursing student, to a communications major.
nursing didn’t work because i found out that i did not agree with modern medicine, and if anything i’d be a holistic practitioner.

went into communications, minored in english so that i could get a writing job for a newspaper, and also write/teach on the side.
-obviously communications was demanding, and my personality didn’t cut it.

life had me take a break from school to chill and just be, but working a job that i care nothing about is catching up with me !
i didn’t show up just yesterday cuz i didn’t know i had to. . oh fuckin well !

anyway, i plan on going to houston to study english and professional writing, get my website up and post sum divine articles and poetry.

[i hate that college supposedly determines your mental aptitude, and money determines your status or ‘wealth’ in this world. ugh. but we gotta do what we gotta doo ooo !]

here we g o o o again.

But first I have to decide what I want to do…

I’m about halfway through my program, and I am doing fantastic. I forgot how using your brain makes you feel better haha! I also seemed to forget before how great of a student I was. I may have dropped out of high school, but when I did 4 of my 6 classes were Honors classes and I had a really good GPA. Right now in college I am on the President’s List with a perfect 4.0 and I am loving my classes! I am also a student ambassador, which is like college leadership. This is s much greater than I had even expected, and I know I will come out on top, and doing amazing! Just wanted to update! :]]

Ugh. October is not going well for me. I mean it is and it isn’t. I’ve gotten a lot of work done but there is still so much work left to do and I am feeling run down. There’s been a lot of personal stuff going on (isn’t there always in October?). I’ve been asking for help but not getting any.

Time to get to work. Maybe.

I’m not a stupid person… but I find myself freaking out when it comes to tests. I have anxiety and my heart races when I even think about studying so… I procrastinate… then it comes test time and I SUCK. This past test I did all of my reading… went into it attempting to be calm and I still bombed it. I don’t know how I can stop worrying about EVERYTHING and dragging it all around with me.

I got a D on something I studied incredibly long and incredibly hard for. Now I am trying/struggling to keep things in perspective and find 3-5 good things for every bad.

Inscription on! YEah

And I will tell you why. Tuesdays and Thursdays we have Medical Office Procedures, and they still cannot get MediSoft to work. So the computer teacher comes in and thinks he is Mr Awesome because he ‘fixed it’ Uh…wrong. Sure he had the program running in its tutorial stage, but we have to upload a file to it which places patients and their information in the right spaces so we can actually schedule them appointments. Or that is the goal. Well after messing with the program, the file, and tweaking things over and over, I got it to work. Well on my PC. But it won’t work on the others. Tried the same thing, moved things around, and it won’t jive. So after I called in and had a lil talk with the head of the institution, they are going to either order new books, or supply new software. So now, its a waiting game.

Oh and we won’t get into the down talking SOB who sat there and acted like I didn’t know what I was doing. I could do his job better!!! Grrr!