finish school

Two more big papers to go, although those will both be English papers and this one was a research paper for my independent study.

And I don’t regret it. Everything that needed to happen did and I’ll do my school work all this week and then maybe pause again next weekend. I’m ready. I think I can do this.

Oh, the things I’ve done this semester to get by…

I wish it was Thanksgiving break already.

I need to finish my Wiki project, and the PTSD paper for the lab.

Then after those are out of the way I need to study for biopsychology because I got the test moved to next Wednesday. Gosh. That is going to be hard but maybe if I can keep in mind that it’s just a test I will be over to get through it most effectively. Like any other test, if you study hard enough you can get it.

And lastly, both my English classes require a little attention.

I really need to remember what I want. I can’t let myself slip this late in the game, for any reason.

ok so, i’m a senior technically, but i have NO major.

this is because, i didn’t really know which path i wanted to take as a ‘career’. i discovered myself during college, therefore there was a bunch of confusion as to where i should go !

i went from a 3 yr nursing student, to a communications major.
nursing didn’t work because i found out that i did not agree with modern medicine, and if anything i’d be a holistic practitioner.

went into communications, minored in english so that i could get a writing job for a newspaper, and also write/teach on the side.
-obviously communications was demanding, and my personality didn’t cut it.

life had me take a break from school to chill and just be, but working a job that i care nothing about is catching up with me !
i didn’t show up just yesterday cuz i didn’t know i had to. . oh fuckin well !

anyway, i plan on going to houston to study english and professional writing, get my website up and post sum divine articles and poetry.

[i hate that college supposedly determines your mental aptitude, and money determines your status or ‘wealth’ in this world. ugh. but we gotta do what we gotta doo ooo !]

here we g o o o again.

But first I have to decide what I want to do…

I’m about halfway through my program, and I am doing fantastic. I forgot how using your brain makes you feel better haha! I also seemed to forget before how great of a student I was. I may have dropped out of high school, but when I did 4 of my 6 classes were Honors classes and I had a really good GPA. Right now in college I am on the President’s List with a perfect 4.0 and I am loving my classes! I am also a student ambassador, which is like college leadership. This is s much greater than I had even expected, and I know I will come out on top, and doing amazing! Just wanted to update! :]]

Ugh. October is not going well for me. I mean it is and it isn’t. I’ve gotten a lot of work done but there is still so much work left to do and I am feeling run down. There’s been a lot of personal stuff going on (isn’t there always in October?). I’ve been asking for help but not getting any.

Time to get to work. Maybe.

I’m not a stupid person… but I find myself freaking out when it comes to tests. I have anxiety and my heart races when I even think about studying so… I procrastinate… then it comes test time and I SUCK. This past test I did all of my reading… went into it attempting to be calm and I still bombed it. I don’t know how I can stop worrying about EVERYTHING and dragging it all around with me.