be the best girlfriend ever

I think I am a ok girlfriend, but to jealous and boyish, so I want to be a better nicer girl for him, but I want to keep my tomboy attitude.

i’ve fallen pretty short of this goal lately. i’ve been under alot of stress lately and have let my doubts and insecurities get the best of me. it’s not that there is anything wrong with my relationship, it’s just not right either. i’ve been dealing with starting school and changing my work and sleep schedule, he’s been dealing with a tree falling on the house and his friend totaling his car, and work stuff. we’ve just lost touch with each other over the past month. spending time together this past tues helped and i feel a lot better. we just have to be open and keep trying.

valentines day was awesome even though me and my sweetie worked opposite shifts. i kinda felt bad because i ruined his surprise for me by waking up and going downstairs while he was putting everything together. he brought me my favorite flavor of ice cream and legos. no one has ever done that for me before! he also brought me chicken and dumplings and flowers. he even picked out all the flowers in the arrangement himself and it was absolutely beautiful! i got him bacon flavored mints, bacon scented air freshener, bacon shaped band aids and i made him soap with gummy bacon in it. and i also left a heart shaped meat lovers pizza in the fridge and made a valentines day card out of construction paper with gir on it. those of you that watch invader zim will get it, those who haven’t should go out and watch a few episodes right now!

this is the first time i’ve ever gotten into valentine’s day since i was a kid, and i had so much fun!

he even said it was the best valentine’s day ever and he will never forget it!

sigh…i love him so much!

i figured out what to do for valentine’s day the other day! it involves…well i can’t tell you what it involves until afterwards. i don’t want to ruin the surprise!

i haven’t put as much effort in to this goal as i would like. ever since i moved in with my boyfriend we’ve fallen into a routine. i have a few ideas for valentine’s day, but i can’t decide what i want to do. i know that i will have to work, so i might not even get to see him on that day :(

Well my boyfriend was checking my things out and told me I have done this one that I am the best girlfriens ever. But I think there is still some things I can do to become even better. I can’t listen to him on that of I mean he is gonna say that or that would be mean of him. To me it is about me feeling that I am the best girlfriend ever.

He is the best to me shouldn’t I be the best to him. I hope I am doing a good job. I think I might go ask if I am the best.

on wed i left my boyfriend a poem by e.e. cummings on his myspace page and today i bought him wings. i think he liked the wings more lol!

my boyfriend went out of town last week for a wedding, so while he was gone his friend aaron and i washed some dishes and cleaned up around the apartment and did some laundry for him. also, i’ve been staying with him lately so i’ve been making an effort to straighten up here and there and not be my usual extremely messy self. we’ll see how well that works out lol

on my boyfriend’s actual birthday i had a friend, a chef at morton’s steak house, sneak into his house and make a four course dinner while we were at the movies. we had rice with skewered veggies, spinach salad with rasp vinagrette, steak with veggies and cheesy potato something, and for dessert, california cheesecake( my boyfriend’s favorite) and chocolate covered strawberries. the meal was amazing! the steak was perfect. wait till he sees his surprise for next year!