(What is RSS?)ive wasted ten months of my life on derek
and u kno how far ive gotten
well its basically we speak bout once a day in person
and then random words at nite on the net
ive also went 2 nites without cryin over him
so i guess that could b a secret goal acheived
um this was a weird entry
but not officially
cuz gaith had 2 drag it outta me
but we both like each other
so yay
but one time doesnt count as a goal achieved
but i told this one guy
everything that was going on between us
and i feel so much better now that he knows
and now that i kno that its fine
well kinda fine
but ive felt so angry and sad and just shitty since a few days ago
and now im all happy and hyper and gotta go 2 sleep
but i cant cuz im finally done being all depressed 4 the moment
lol guyz
that i dont kno how i feel about certain ones
like this one ive been hanging out w/
i dunno if i like him
or just like watchin him
im not really stalkin him
but it seems like we sumtimes just cant talk
and it kinda scares me
and sumwhere inside of me
i fear that voice that says
u kno who u want
and it isnt him
but i want 2 ignore that voice
but its so hard
and im so lost in thought now
i really dont kno if its weird or not
but i just cant seem2 tell guys how i feel about them
no matter who it is
i cant tell a guy i think hes gross
nor can i tell the most wonderful guy alive
that i just wish 4 hug or anything
im like useless in life
