be less anti-social

i HATE people, because most people are not people i like…specifically dumb people…so i find some people, and i REALLY like those people and then i stick to them..i would like to meet more people i like tho…but if i never talk to people, how will i know if i like them? :) s’funny too, because with the people i do like, i’m VERY social, so its a funny kind of antisocial-ness :P

IVE LISTED THE TYPE OF ANTI SOCIAL;

A-the type who only talks to family..but not others

B-the type who only talks to boyfriends/girlfriends/wife/husband
but not others

C-the type who only talks to those who dont know you(SUCH AS
CHATTING ONLINE)

D-the type who only talks to friends but not others

E-the type who dont talk to anyone (this is critical level)

F-others

I too am anti-social and don’t know if its possible to change that. I just feel as though most things suck and its a waste of time to do them. For example I went to a club last night and it, you guessed it, sucked. Everyone is fake and they all think they are so cool. The rum and cokes were also expensive and weak, although drinking two at a time helped. Maybe its because I was too much of a loser to ask anyone to dance and just kept buying drinks one after the other. Does anyone else feel as though they can sense the impending lameness of most things and doesnt even wanna bother? I have this view point towards most things….ah well hopefully i can make a mental effort to have a fun time.

I’ve definitely accomplished this, I think. Rather than finding excuses for why not to go places, etc, I actually went to a party at the end of the semester, and enjoyed myself. Plus, I’m not so afraid to speak up and talk to people. And I had lunch fairly regularly with people who weren’t my best friends in the entire world, but who had invited me anyways.

wow…i just accomplished this at pca and it was all because i was like whoa these people live in like…detroit and stuff…and yeah…

I never seem to know what to say to people… and I should say something… And I want to, but I always find myself in the corner, away from people…

lskajfd This is not working out so well :| mainly because I dislike a lot of people at school nowadays, and therefore do not want to associate with them any more than necessary :|

Thursady night was fun… we only stayed for about 2 hours, but I’m glad we went. I need to push myself to be more social once in a while, to keep my anxiety at bay. Thinking about inviting my sister-in-law up next weekend, we’ll see though.

I just found out that the outing tomorrow night is at a Karaoke (sp?) bar!!! Dare I add another goal to my list and sing in front of strangers? Hmm???

Thursday is Dan’s boss’s birthday, and all his workmates and their significant others are going out to celebrate. They are a fun bunch, so I am going to force myself to go, no matter how uncomfortable or panicky I feel. Dan won’t be drinking because he’ll be driving, and I won’t be drinking much because I have to work the next day, so we won’t have to stay that long. I think I can swing a couple of hours pretending to be sociable. Fake it til you make it, right?