Stop going to bed at 4 in the morning

my internal clock fixed itself
and because my boyfriend tells me to go to bed at a decent hour
and i listen hahaha

I’m not making any progress on this goal at all. Last night I went to bed at like 6 in the morning. I just visited the goal- “be a morning person” & people were whining about waking up at 10 in the morning (as if that was something to be upset about). Today I woke up at 2pm. I’ve woken up as late as 4pm before. It’s gotten absolutely ridiculous. I would be jumping for joy if I could wake up by 10am. I hate that I can only wake up at any certain time when I have some sort of “real” appointment like the dentist or school. Why can’t I just do it myself? I think that when I finally make an appointment to see a therapist that I will talk about this with them. I think this is something deeper than just being tired.

I have gotten even worse at this. The past 2 nights I haven’t gone to bed till 7 am. I hate going to bed when it’s light out. ...and then the next day is completely ruined.

fuck.

my clock is so messed up!!

night night bebes